There you will be, in my heart always

2009-09-25T08:37:00.000-07:00

Back to blog AGAIN .. zzz ...

Hmm ... well .. shall not say much today ..

one sad new just brought to me ..

my friend who is fighting the illness , has fought bravely and strongly ..

But ..

He had already stopped fighting with it ..

He has been a great person , a guy who jokes and be optimistic about anything and everything that comes his way . A person who never fails to bring a smile to people .

Now ..

Gees ..

i shall end here ..

goodbye ..

2009-09-24T09:25:00.000-07:00

ALRIGHT !

Once again , im back to blog .. yes , which means another day of my life is coming to an end ..

Like all other days , im bored at home , no where no one to go out .. pathetic ba .. well , choose not to go out ba . dont know what to do also .. wander around the streets on my own ? nahh .. never my kind of style .. i will feel awkward and just die on the streets ..

WELL .. wonder are the rest of friends living this kind of life ? hmm ... probably not .. so far so good , those whom i knew who are attached has their second half to accompany each day , those who have jobs are enjoying their work , and those who wants to enjoy holidays one are definitely enjoying and doing whatever they like .. watching dramas , movies , window shop bla bla bla ..

Seriously .. i dont know what to continue on ..

what can i blog about ..

hmm ...

daily life ? nahh .. my life is simply just too boring . eat , sleep , watch and play . As easy as ABC ..

Relationship ? nothing to talk about . Im single , nobody in mind .. or should i say .. there is someone , just that i cant figure out whether is like her or just simply regard her as ...... oh well .. i dont dare to give a try , i dont dare to like .. just a coward now and forever i will ..

Alright ..

Ending here ..

stay up to see a miracle ..

2009-09-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

AFTER much worrying , finally get to see the results today .

Like i said , thought it would be a disappointment , but .. its a satisfaction instead ? weird huh .. yea .. jiu that weird .. In fact , im very happy with it !!

So ..

My day started off with that satisfaction .. what a good start =)

I jumped up today .. knowing its 12plus liao .. and my phone went out of battery cause i listen to my blog song the whole night . Hah ! know its crazy to listen to a song over and over again , but .. its just that nice . probably im crazy already ba ..

August , first person to ask about my result .. haha . okays , random ..

Well , that satisfaction didnt really last me for the whole day . Not long , im back to that old , bored usual self already .. why ? i dont know .. probably you know can tell me ..

So .. decided to meet mum for lunch since im free .. went hougang mall to have lunch . MAN ! the kopitiam fried kway tiao sucks . Okays .. no offence , dont suit my taste . Nevertheless , can go try it .

Alright , after eating when to buy the mogul drink that jianwen introduce . NICE drink .. just a pity that its kind of sweet .

Hmm ...

Saw a gal that ran past me fast , down the escalator to the next floor and move as fast as possible .

That moment ..

I thought it was you .. from the dressing style and the way you walked when you are in a hurry or you want to avoid a certain person , moreover .. the hair the back view just look like you .. i was .. disappointed ..

i was thinking to myself , why you will run away and avoid me each time we met on the streets ? Well .. soon after , i caught the look of that girl .. it wasnt her .. im .. like woa relieved ..

But .. still .. i know you would do that if i were to bump into you on the streets tomorrow , the next day , the day after next or the future days ahead .

No offence if you are reading it .. just .. it had being so long since we are not together already . i hope you wouldnt avoid me already if we were to meet on the streets .. i would hope to say a hi and smile to you next time we met .

One of my greatest hope ever since you avoid me many times last time when i saw you on the streets . I know its awkward .. but .. friends , just a word friend is all im satisfied with .

Sorry to have done so much last time and that probably you cant stand in front and say a hi to me now .. just hope .. i have your forgiveness ..

sorry ..

2009-09-22T08:37:00.000-07:00

RESULTS RESULTS RESULTS !!!

It will be out in a few hours time =.= zzz ...

Super duper worried .. though i know it will be a disapoointment , still .. hope for the better . haha .

Alright !

Set aside the result thing ..

Song ! Changed blog song once again .

Have been indulged with this song recently .. its from the hong kong drama , Heart of Greed . Well .. many people said its nice , which i dont think it would be initial . But .. no doubt , give it a try , watch it , its just .. THAT NICE !! No joke =)

Well .. this song titled "my love will get you home" . One of the songs played during the whole series of drama .
I find this song .. hmm ... can be a sweet song , yet it can be a sad song .. it depends on what is your situation when you are listening to it .. haha .. well .. this song probably is delicated for guys from girls ba ..

Watch the video and listen to the song , you will get what i mean =)

The first feelings that came to me when i first heard this ..

She came to my mind ..

HMMmm ......

Its just so much to recall ..

Alright ! Listen ba ..

Probably those in relationship will see your sweet days together , for those who will once in relationship and single now , flashbacks may come by ..

Just so you know ..
you came by my mind each time im down ..
is this good or bad ?

my love will get you home ..

2009-09-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS !!

But ..

It doesnt seems to be like holidays to me .. everything just seems so .. dry ? sian ? bored ?
Becoming more and more no life already ..

So ..

Work sucks .. two words to describe my work for this holiday ..

Well .. put that aside .. life SUCKs too .. so .. all and all .. everything suck =.= haha . nevertheless , be happy for what i have now ..

Why i would say that ?

Well ..

Recently , a relative of mine passed away, just simply fainted and he just go like that .. without any sign of illness or anything ..

Also, a friend of mine was sent to a hospice .. and this friend of mine is fighting with cancer .. when i visited him , he is still that cheerful and jokes around like he used to be last time when we were in school ..

That is not the life he deserve , but .. why ?

Probably , its fate that we are talking about .. which many people doesnt really believe in .. well .. i believe in it .. after many cases of unpleasant incidents happened ..

Hmm ... come again .. my friend is still fighting strong with that illness .. so .. why should i complain when my life is bored only ?

Same goes to everyone out there .. love people that you know , dont learn to hate them , but learn to treasure them .. one day you will find the difference if they arent around your side anymore ..

Be it your family , friends , boyfriend , girl friend ..

LOVE THEM !! TREASURE THEM !! be grateful for everything they do for you every minute of your life ..

Results going to be out this coming wednesday .. very worried about it .. though i know my GPA will drop .. not slight drop , rather a great drop .. zzz ... let's hope it would happen la huh ..

ALL THE BEST to my class for the releasing of results !! Let's work harder for the new sem !! JIAYOU ! =)

stay strong , my friend ..

2009-08-10T09:30:00.000-07:00

NDP 08 ..

After a year ..

NDP 09 ..

NVSS CI Family ..

How fast time flies ..
One moment, they are cadets, next moment they are colleagues..
Next moment, probably kahwai and I will be out from there.. haha..
Life is all about this.. whether you like it or anot.. it will still pass..
Be it a happy day, a sad day.. time will still fly..
you may reject it today, you may find yourself next day wanting to go back to yesterday to accept that somebody/something you rejected..
To everyone I know..
Once you decide, never to regret..
Life is about deciding..
Nobody has the choice to do that, but you do..
Its your own life..

i have regretted..
have you?

2009-08-09T09:41:00.000-07:00

Since how long i havent being back ? well .. nothing brings me to come back to blog too ..

Anyway ..

This few weeks have being a hectic one for me, as well as my class dudes .. projects, reports, presentations, tests and exams have been pushing our minds to burst open .. well , im glad that most of it are done now .. most worrying one will be the upcoming sem test .. well , havent being scoring well this sem , wonder how it is like at the end of this sem , what will happen to my GPA ? hmm ... hope my GPA of 3 and above can be maintained ba .. X.X

Well , life is boring for me ..

Probably without you , it has been that boring .. well , after so long , this life is still not what i wanted , this life is still what i cant get use to i guess ..

Yet again ..

Oh shiat .. what am i having such confused feelings now ..

À bientôt fille, j'aime tu ..

2009-06-18T12:35:00.000-07:00

HAHA !

Im back again .. hmm ... holidays now , just a short two weeks for us to revise for our common tests ..

Well , nobody is studying , all of us are playing like mad xD

Heh heh .. must get cracking !!! hmm ... wonder when also .. hah ..

Changed song again , DBSK proud .. rather old song .. well , its nice ..

Take a look ba ..

proud ..

2009-06-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

ALRIGHT !

SHINee back .. with their juliette live !!

catch it !! its nice !! awesome ! their stage performance improved , especially taemin !!

juliette oh ~

2009-06-01T10:24:00.000-07:00

YES !

changed blog song , too bad cant play full song of survivor already =(
well .. this song is nice too =)
emo mo mo song ..
dedicate to everyone who just feels emo today when you visit this blog ,
or to anyone who feels emo that day when you happen to pass by this blog ..

hmm ...

for emo people ..
dont be emo , there are always more better days lined up in your life , what has caused you to emo today , take it as a learning experience , look forward to tomorrow , i believe it will be better .. cherish every moment that your life have being entitled to , and cherish everyone you loved ..

remember , your love ones will always stand by you ..

2009-05-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

ZEN ZEN ZEN !!!

woohoo ! how long how long is this blog sleeping ? hmm ...

oh well .. im back .

yesterday yesterday yesterday !!!

fun time with my classmates-su !! not all la , just the usual some of us :)

shall not talk much , photos will tell you the summary about the game yesterday :)

creavtive two ~ using table tennis racket to whack a shutter cock ? O.o

serious august ..

no table , use floor to whack pingpong ..

see the one eye cyclops ? :)

now a six hand monster !! :)

our very own dory and nemo :)

take 1

take 2

take 3

i guess those photos are clear enough to express the fun we have :)

Oh ya !! going sentosa with 4e1 peeps this saturday . heehee =)

my dearest classmates ~

2009-05-12T13:47:00.000-07:00

IM BACK !!

Alrights, yet another event that i can memorise and continue to encorage myself to bring smile to people !! :)

Last saturday , we celebrated shijia's birthday !! well , it was meant to be a surprised party. haha . we did really surprised her on that day .

Well , felt good that she is surprised and happy as i have like i said, bring another smile on a person . yea , i will continue to do that , no matter who it is , when it is and no matter is my effort regconised . people are happy , so do i :)

My blog is very dead , i know that =.=

Probably this few weeks will be quite busy. promised myself to get back on track to study after planning her birthday celebration and i promise myself this like three weeks ago only ? its fast , three weeks have passed and everything was carried out already . well , guess i have to move on with life and study hard already. cannot afford to pull down my GPA anymore. manage to pull it up to 3.12 , hope i can push it up further .

People are getting sick this few days, which include me . well , do take care people !! though swine flu alert for singapore is yellow colour , but .. still .. take care of yourself will be better :) nonono , not just yourself , take care of your love ones too !!

Alrights , nothing much liao . maybe i would not be blogging that often already , if there is something important or something that i cant bottle it down myself , probably i will be back again .

So ..

See ya !!

should have left it earlier,
is it too late to leave now?
i should have open my heart to someone else,
but..
will i have the courage to say to you?
or should i just keep us as friends?
what should i do?

2009-04-24T11:04:00.000-07:00

NVSS Speech Day , Friends of NV award ..

classmates of mine ,
school mates of mine ,
prefect buddies of mine ,
squadmates of mine ,
colleagues of mine ,
friends of mine ..
milfred wanted to say ,
IM PROUD TO HAVE THEM WHO MAKE UP EVERYTHING OF MINE !!!

kahwai , janice , milfred ..

2009-04-16T08:11:00.001-07:00

BLOG IS QUIET , I GUESS ..

Haha .. hmm ...

Soon , school will be starting again . it will be my year two lo . how fast time flies .. i have not being doing much contribution to NYP ever since i have being enrolled in . well , probably i guess i have become lazier . If not , probably is close friends who i used to work with wasnt in my school i guess . Oh well , probably like what many will say , i shall smoke my way through this 3 years of poly life . start and end off quietly .. haha .

Well , i should say my new timetable sucks =.=

Monday to wednesday , not a single break in between , somemore monday to tueday starts early in the morning like 9am and 10am , all the way to 6pm without a damn break =.= the one who plan this idiot timetable dont be so kia-su can , piang us with lectures , tutorials and labs for what sia =.= not break in between can KILL !

Best part is thursday , super best .. 8am all the way to 830pm . yet again , the one who plan timetable , you think we are working ? no difference compare to working adults ma . in fact , we are worse i guess .

Well , friday is a off day . But .. who knows lecturer will call us back for extra tutorials and lectures =.= im very sure they will do that for at least once for the upcoming 14 weeks .

DAMN !

Well , results wise .. im okays with it la .. not that disappointing and not that satisfied with it .. overall , can lo =.=

Last sem i got 2.92 for GPA , this sem i got 3.32 for GPA .. average out , 3.12 nia =.= zzz ... pull down by 0.2 .. it is still very far from my target GPA , 3.5 .. and dont need say 3.8 onwards to continue this course in university la . chao chao for the remaining GPA , i must each get 3.8 and above to average out everything =.= which is .. IMPOSSIBLE ! yes , i must try , but .. anyone would know its very hard la .. bless me man .

So .. those minority of JC people out there , who thinks only JC needs lots of effort while poly doesnt require much effort , think again ar . i know you all are in JC , that doesnt mean you are that effing smart either .

And one thing ..

Recently , i went to burger king to order food , there i saw some JC boys , clearly stated on their shirt the colleage they are in , well .. i wouldnt say it here . they are the softball boys of their school , and that JC is one of the top 5 JC in Sinagpore .

Well , they went to the counter to order their food , the one who took their order is a 30plus woman , who cant speak fluent english like me .. the boys insulted her , right in front of her , doing those funny actions , following the way she speaks and trying to be funny .

Then after which when they pay for their food , and the woman return them the change , they say dont need , you can keep the change in an insulting people de attitude . the woman was like , she is just doing her job , and yet got insulted by them ..

I was damn furious , eh . JC people , think you so smart is it ? so what if you are in good JC , doesnt mean you can insult people right ? she is merely a woman who just want to work and get paid to support her family or maybe herself . she is not paid to be insulted by you clowns !!

Seriously , i hate JC people , not all la .. those who are proud , show offs , like those boys !!

I know many will say you cant just base on that situation and give a final judgement about JC people , well .. i agree to that , but .. i guess many things are meant to be kept to yourself . well , shouldnt say much on that .

But , just want to tell them ,

WATCH YOUR DAMN EFFING ATTITUDE !!!

Going for another wisdom tooth extraction tomorrow .. not again =.= zzz ... just for this pair of braces , it took out five of my teeth already . tomorrow one more , which makes it six =.= i will cry the damn shit out of me tomorrow . stay tuned , to hear my cry wherever you will be at 10am . lolx ..

Alrights , ending off here ..

BYEBYE :)

wisdom tooth ,
not again ..

2009-03-31T09:43:00.000-07:00

LONG TIME NO UPDATE AR !! :)

Heh heh ..

Well .. got many things that happened between my last update till this update ..

Events like my birthday , going to new workplace , and slacking my time away .. lolx ..

I dont think i will post everything ba .. it will be a damn DAMN long post , and i guess you will reading till eyes got bloated also havent finish looking through it . heh heh ..

Bascially , i have spent the most wonderful birthday this year !! thanks to all my friends and relatives for your wishes , your presents and your accompany !! :) heh heh .. not as much of big celebration like what my friends who have gone through their 18th birthday before me , like barbeques , chalets and stuffs . mine is just a small meet outs , receive presents and cut cake with family , that is all that make my 18th brithday a memorable one . heh .. i must say , its better than the rest of years of birthday that i have celebrated . small celebrations from friends and family warms my heart , that is all i can ask for . hah . well , people varies . some may want a grand celebration , especially when you turn 18 or 21 .

Hmm ... i guess each has their own advantages and disadvantages ba ..

Finally , i changed my phone !! yesterday just bought it . heh .

Now my phone is samsung SGH-F480 . heh heh .. ok la , i must say its common now , many people around me are carrying that phone , and want try touch screen one , initially got two phones in my mind , one is the phone i bought , the other is OMNIA .. well .. OMNIA is kind of beyond my budget , so .. get my second phone . hah .

Hmm ... we once have the same previous phone , well .. i guess now we have changed to a different one , i guess it somehow tells me that i need to walk my own path , never to leave any memories behind . well , all the best to you and your future eh . hope you will find a better someone in the time to come . take cares ..

forget , is what i can do ..

2009-03-11T21:53:00.002-07:00

YO !

Back to blog again .. finally eh .. haha ..

Well .. the last time i blog was about .. 1st march ? great !

Hmm ... well .. lets see ..

This few days just started new work , that will be at vivo city's haagen dazs .

Well , the minute i went in , i was being sent to the kitchen , which my job was to make the creations that customers want to eat !! that was sure a tough one , i have to memorise every of the creation in the menu and know how to make each and every one of them la !! of course first timer , confirm dont know one what and i kept being scolded by my shi jie =.=

Hope i can get the hang of it soon ba ..

Other than my shi jie , everyone else was friendly la .. they are very kind to new people , well .. maybe my shi jie scold me is for my own good to memorise everything there ba .. well .. hope i can master them soon , and its real soon =(

I got phobia of going work sia .. everytime need go work , i jiu will sian .. lolx ..

Well ..

Brother went india with his army yesterday , i cant accompany him to airport as i have to work =.= and well , he will only be back on the 27th march , which he will miss my birthday celebration lo =(

Take care bro !!! :)

And yes !!

13th march coming , its like two days only ? haha .. well .. it will be nothing much also , it will be just another normal day of my life .. well , i wouldnt put too much hope in seeing myself being happy always on my birthday , which i dont know why ..

If there are people to celebrate with me , that will be great , if not , haha .. let it past like normal days ..

And yes !! changing phone soon , but i have no idea on what phone to change , any suggestions people ? O.o

Oh well , i think i shall end it here ba .. going work later , yet another day of scoldings le =(

See ya !!

oh well ,
you rather contact anyone else other me eh ,
well , i dont know what have i done wrong ,
i guess its time i wouldnt be waiting for you already ..

2009-03-01T07:31:00.000-08:00

IM BACK!!

Firstly,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BRO!! :)

Yea!! today is my brother's 21st birthday, well.. freedom already lo.. counted as adult le :) he has his key of freedom already..

Well..

Yesterday we have a chalet to celebrate his 21st birthday. Its organised by my family.. well.. i helped him plan everything, doing the contacts of his friends and the food and the decoration.. and my parents just kept supporting on the cost side.. while my aunts, uncle and cousins helped in the carrying, decoration and barbeque..

Well.. at the start, everything was running smoothly, then till night, it started to pour.. which kills the mood there.. everyone all squeezed inside the chalet la.. imagine 40plus 50 people inside the chalet of costa sands resort pasir ris.. =.=

It was crowded!!

Everyone talking and laughing..

Well.. despite the rain, i die die also must make it to take his cake back.. so.. i did!! and all of us sang birthday song for him, pop the poppers and everything.. take photos and stuffs.. haha.. yea.. seeing them celebrating, well.. i guess 21st birthday are meant to be like this ba..

Hmm...

To all my brother's friend,

Thanks for turning up for my brother's party!! your presence makes lots of difference to the whole party!! thank you!! :) well.. sorry that the whole thing maybe bit boring due to the rain and the delayed of cutting cake. sorry about that.. hope you guys have enjoyed yesterday night's celebration!! thank you and see all of you soon!! :)

To my grandmothers, parents, uncle, aunts and cousins,

Thanks for coming down for this party!! thanks for helping me out with all the stuffs there!! i may have sound bit harsh at times due to frustration, sorry about that.. thank you for your effort yesterday!! i appreciate it alot!! :) hope you enjoyed :)

Last but not least,

To my three wonderful school/NPCC best peeps, gerard, janice and kah wai.

Thank you for coming down too!! though i know its kind of weird and sian for you guys, cause you all only know each other and me during the whole party, nevertheless you all still came and just sat there. sorry that im kind of a bad host to you guys.. dont mind about that? haha.. and thank you kah wai and gerard for guiding me throughout the whole journey of cycling from pasir ris park to bedok reservoir to changi beach connector to pasir ris park to changi and from changi back to pasir ris. i know you guys will want to ride fast ahead, but due to me, you all have to slow down and wait.. haha.. thanks!! i will improve de!! and janice, you also get guide me la, just that the two of them guide me most throughout the journey, so.. you are thanked too!! :)

Finally,

To brother,

Yo!! happy 21st birthday eh!! :) adult liao, enjoy adult life man!! :)

Haha.. okays.. done with my speech..

Now the events that happened yesterday..

Haha.. no la.. i say everything, i bet you will be bored..

Well.. yesterday was my second time cycling in my 17plus years.. and i have to cycle like very far? haha.. well.. it was a memorale cycle yesterday. yes, its tiring.. but.. when you cycle down slope, when the cold wind blow upon you, its the best!! it clears off all your stress in life at the very moment.. cool!! haha.. well.. i guess i will look forward to cycle with them at night more :) haha.. but.. one thing that sucks, it will be the seat of the bike.. after long hours of cycling non-stop from 12plus 1am to 6am, my butt hurts alot =.= now i walk also got problem.. dont know i shit got problem ma.. havent try.. lolx..

Well..

Overall its a good day spent yesterday with my family and friends!! :)

Thank you so much for piece-ing up this whole picture of fun with me!! :) love you all!! :)

Photo will be up soon..

Goodnights!! :)

happy birthday!! :)

2009-02-24T21:06:00.000-08:00

Changed blog song..

DBSK new album, secret code de song..
survivor!! :)
Was introduced by shijia yesterday,
asking me to go watch the MTV..
haha.. must say its fantastic!! :)
enjoy the video..

i need a job!!

2009-02-21T09:18:00.000-08:00

IM BACK!! :)

Oh well..

Since when is the last time i blog? Hmm...

Well well well...

Let's see waht have being installed for me during this period of time..

Hmm...

Tuesday i just had my first paper, engineering maths? well.. it was a managable paper, not bad.. can score ba.. i guess? O.o? haha..

Then move on to Organic chemistry on thursday.. the day before, i was choinging from early afternoon all the way to midnight 2am.. then cannot take it, promise myself sleep one hour, end up 6am then wake up!! crap!! still remember i left with dont know a few big topics like.. hmm.. STEROCHEMISTRY la.. blah blah blah de.. panic.. quickly wake up from 6am and study all the way until i leave house at 11am for test at 1230pm.. well.. did past year paper.. and studied like mad, thinking that the test will be hard.. but.. it turned out to be like 85% of the paper the same as past year paper? =.=

Of course.. we are all happy la.. cos i was my seat number was all the way to the most front of the whole row.. then i am taking my own sweet time to do.. looking around.. all of them, not struggling, rather happy slowly doing also.. i still someone go out of room shout, "very easy man!" haha.. then there is one friend of mine, ask me, "milfred, what you struggling there sia? i seen you finished the paper already, still sit there like stuck in one question." haha.. actually im.. enjoying the aircon? lolx.. hmm... cannot like that say.. im checking throughly ^.^ okays.. crap answer..

Well..

That was so much of the past two papers.. up till now, there is one paper left.. which is biochemical science lo.. a sian module with lots of memorising to do. crap!! i have even go memorise, and everything seems like holidays to me already =.= well.. jiayou bei!!

Today..

Went out with friends for a badminton game, a good-big fat-solid 4 hours of badminton game okays!! miao siao siao!! hoho.. i cross eye liao.. super, ultra long.. but.. fun!! :)

After which have a game of left 4dead.. haha.. eight of us sit inside one whole row and whack each other? like shooting and helping each other la.. we are all NPCC cadets okays.. teamwork is a no problem to us!! shooting wise leii.. i got no comments =.= i admit im one of the pa-jiao guy..

Haha..

Hmm... after that have some things that anger me, making everyone restless.. well.. shouldnt say anything much here, but.. one advice, if possible, dont go hougang plaza de lan shop lo.. attitude.. SUCKS!!

Came back, feeling sick? jiu sleep all the way till now.. haha..

Well..

At first, i thought i will left alone at home today, thinking of so much sad stuffs that i know will remind me of when 21st of feburary reaches..

But..

Thanks to you guys, i manage to spend a wonderful and meaning day outside.. thank you so much guys!! :) totally enjoyed till the max!! if not for you all, i probably stuck at home, and think lots of unhappy stuffs..

Well.. 21st feburary 2008.. the day i have lost a girl, a very good girl.. well.. those who know me knows who is she.. still remember last year de today, was a total sad day.. and still drag myself down to see my juniors train their campcraft competition.. i was, totally no concentration at all when im there.. i dont know how i look like to them when i go there to train them, but i seriously broke down..

One year past, yet im still reamining at last year's today.. i guess you have moved on.. i guessed that im just a failure, remaining at where i shouldnt stop at but carry on moving on in life to find better someone.. but.. i cant.. dont ask me why.. its just.. feelings..

Thanks to you guys, i manage to pass it without thinking much at all.. hmm... ya.. though im somehow the odd one out there, but.. i enjoyed like we are just good buddies who know each other for years? lolx..

Alrights..

That is so much of this post already, go chiong my biochemical science paper liao..

Goodnights to all!! :)

i wanted to say bye to you,
each time i wanted to do that,
im being held back again,
i want to move on with life,
yet i cant,
i wanted to move on with someone,
yet i have no confidence to ask again,
im such a failure..

2009-02-17T20:36:00.001-08:00

i dreamt of you last night..
i dreamt that you finally talk to me face to face..
with a wide open smile..
i was happy..
but..
when i woke up..
i realised..
it was just a dream..
and i wish..
how well it would be if its reality..

going to a year already,
my legs doesnt allow me to move,
cause my heart cant move on..

2009-02-10T06:44:00.000-08:00

WOA!!

It has been days since i blog.

Hmm...

Well.. sem tests are drawing nearer.. just had my common tests for project engineering drawing and quality control last thursday and friday.. and i must say.. project engineering drawing was okay.. rather quality control sucks to hell!! manage to cling on a pass jiu hao liao lo.. jiu that one ar.. cannot make it la..

Hmm... trying my best to get a GPA of more than 3 for this sem.. Well.. if i cant get it, i think most probably will be QUALITY CONTROL that push me down the drain ba.. a sucky module with credit module of 5 points? =.= well.. let's hope it will not be.. heh heh..

Hmm...

Have being exercising these few days.. and it just feels so great to do that.. haha..

Soon.. this saturday will be yet another valentine day le..

Went to look at some of 4e1 peeps' blogs.. haha.. they put down the photo of the drawings that 4e1 guys have drawn on the board for the 4e1 girls on valentine day two years ago.. that drawing on the board is i draw one okay!! :)

Well.. two years ago.. siang yew came up with the idea of buying every girls in the class a rose. So.. we did.. and i remembered that after recess that day was physics lesson, and we have to go physics lab.. so.. some of us pretend to be late from recess.. then they all go off liao.. the few of us quickly sneak in class and place a rose on each girls desk.. and done the drawing on the board.. haha.. well.. expected, we were late and got scolded by mr marvin chan :(

But..

Its worthwhile the scoldings :)

The girls manage to see the rose with shocking look? haha.. and ya.. they are happy about it..

Well.. i felt happy too.. like i say, if i manage to bring a smile to someone, it generally makes me feel happy too. seeing people smile because you did something for them just makes me feel so happy and have a great sense of achievement too..

Well..

That is what we did during secondary school days valentines.. well.. you can say its childish or what so ever, but.. is this little things that we do that makes us enjoy life in schools..

Comparing now and before,

i seriously miss all of my secondary school's classmates :( they are all scattered around in different schools.. hope one day we all can get together back in 4e1 classroom and have a full day chat there.. how i wish it can happen..

There is so much to recall :(

And i guess..

Memories are for us to keep and remember, hope my friends out there do keep them in their hearts..

Well..

Off to study for sem tests already..

Jiayou polyians!! holidays coming shortly!! :)

14/2/2007 valentine day,
first time,
and a memorable first time..

2009-02-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

Four years of friendship , will it end because of just a quarrel?
Is this friendship worth when it can be broken off in a quarrel?
Well.. if you want end it, i got nothing to say..
but..
a byebye?

still interpreting my messages?
well.. you can forget about it..
its not related to you guys..
the things you want to know..
you will know it when we talk..
its nothing written here..
19 more days to a year..

2009-02-01T08:31:00.000-08:00

Guess its time to let you all know what i have being thinking and doing all these while.. Well.. nothing shocking to me, but.. rather it lets me feel sad for your close friends who have always being with you all for 4years and counting on.. just because of an additional stuff, everything starts to change.. is your friendships that weak that just "that stuff" can break it through? Well.. i shouldnt say much about you guys.. wait till that day you know what im thinking, you will understand ba..

think too much,
20 more days to a year..

2009-01-30T09:08:00.000-08:00

to sit on the fence takes lots of effort.. and im not good at it.. i dont want to sit on the fence.. not even the start.. i just to go back to where im familiar with.. its stressful.. let me home.. home to a place where i meet familiar faces..

fear of leaving further away from you..

2009-01-25T08:42:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! 新年快乐!!

Yea!! finally its here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another chinese new year le oh :)

Tomorrow going to meet my only see each other a few times de cousins =) heehee.. must talk to them more!! :)

Hmm...

Food wise i cannot eat much la.. but.. i drink!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha!!

So..

Lets forget the past, keep the present , look forward to the future!!!

Once again people..

Its new year le oh!! enjoy your year ahead!! take cares!!

Woooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

yet another new year,
another new beginning,
another 26 more days to a year..

2009-01-24T08:17:00.000-08:00

SNEEZING!!

Zzz... now im down with flu again.. what a timing =.=

Anyway..

Chinese New Year is coming!! its just tomorrow actually.. tomorrow is new year's eve!! :)

Just now went out of house, saw neighbours painting their houses.. haha.. everyone is getting ready!! woohoo!!

Ok.. just very happy that is once again new year.. haha..

Hmm...

Actually i think through back then.. and i have somehow regretted on some stuffs.. who i am now, i am to blame myself for choosing this path.. well.. is it im too easily to trust a person? i dont know.. everytime i trust a person, that person will always turn what he or she has told me around..

I can never trust people easily now.. i dont wish to see people after me to be like me.. trust a person and in the end, ending up that person has turn away what he or she has promised me.. i know people after me have somehow knew what will be their fate like after they being through what i have gone through last june.. well.. i suppose i cannot say anything much.. maybe their fate wouldnt be like me.. or maybe their fate are just like me..

Well..

Im sure some of you knows what am i referring to.. dont make the wrong choice.. dont because you promise them already and you go.. its your life, they arent any big shots to control your life, they arent any people who can make you guilty.. once you regretted, that is it.. you will never get to enjoy it.. you never know what happens to you when you return, you never know where you will end up after you return.. think carefully.. they arent simple minded people..

Time to sleep..

Goodnights!! :)

27 more days to a year..

2009-01-22T07:47:00.000-08:00

HUNGRY!!

Im super hungry.. and i think i will continue to lose weight liao.. i hardly eat any nowadays.. due to the braces.. and im getting very hungry..

Who can recommend me some food that i can take without troubling the braces and it can be full? my friends all say must be daring to eat.. daring is can la.. but.. the thing snap, means my pocket snap a bigger hole liao..

I seriously need a good meal..

Woo.. these few days have being addicted to mirotic, both the normal version and the acoustic version and some of dbsk's songs.. haha..

Hana!! why why?? haha..

Hmm... lets talk abotu today..

Went school for 29 minutes today =.= zzz... then jiu can go home liao.. haha.. then after that train down to plaza singapura with jianwen, hana, tina and venus.. they ate aijisan(dont know correct spelling ma) while i just sit there and look at them eat? haha!! no la.. not that pathetic..

Cause im going off soon after they sat down and have their meals..

So.. i left.. and train down alone to somerset to find miss steffie one! cause last time i work she went to find me ma.. so.. promise her to go look for her some day during her work days.. so.. train down.. i thought she havent come out for lunch.. but.. when i reach there, she already outside da pao liao =.= i jiu.. zzz... ok.. run all the way there without lunch first, then she da pao liao.. zzz... jiu.. sian.. have to travel back lo.. lolx..

Hmm... not her fault though.. who knows i will be going today.. haha..

So..

Train back to dhoby ghuat lo.. meet up with hana and gang and we went hougang to study maths.. hmm... jianwen and venus dropped off first.. while hana, tina and i went hougang mall's cafe cartel to study.. have baked rice.. and.. cafe cartel baked rice sucks..

Compared to pizza hut's baked rice, it needs more improvement.. far far from pizza hut lo.. hmm... say till baked rice.. woo.. one year ever since i have baked rice with her already.. last time normally will go compass point's pizza hut to have baked rice with her.. still remember she will always eat curry baked rice and used up the whole bottle of cheese on the table =.= haha.. beautiful memories, kept inside and never to be recalled again.. think already jiu.. sad..

Well.. at cafe cartel, the three of us studied, and tina and i felt like sleeping.. due to the beautiful music played and the drinks we had.. haha.. so.. we stopped and chatted? honestly, this is my first time having such a long chat with my poly classmates.. pathetic i know.. its a nice chat though :) hope i can chat more and understand more about my classmates :)

After that off we go..

There are many things to accomplish.. yet chinese new year is here.. cannot really put the heart to enjoy it.. firstly, due to the reports that are needed to hand up and the semestrial tests coming up right after chinese new year. secondly, due to my braces.. which i cant really enjoy the taste of ba guas =.= the taste of pineapple tarts and so on.. which makes me.. dont know how to say also.. haha..

Alrights.. that's all i guess.. off to bed soon.. hungry and tired.. what a shit feeling is this.. hate it!!

Hmm... take cares people!! the weather have being weird nowadays.. hot sun and strong wind.. what a combination.. so.. dont get sick people!! take care!! and those who are already sick, quickly recover!! chinese new year's cuisines are waiting for you~ haha..

Take care and goodnight everyone!! :)

am i acting too weird to you?
can i say..
i care for you,
is cause i have feelings for you?
can i say..
i look out for you everyday,
is cause i miss you so?
can i say..
i want to chat with you,
is cause i want to share my world with you?
can i?

2009-01-16T22:07:00.001-08:00

TIGHT!!

Zzz... my mouth feels very tight now..

Cause..

Yesterday is my first day my braces is put up!! woo.. the feeling is extremely different le.. whole mouth feels very tight.. especially when i woke up in the morning, whole pain like.. cannot describle.. and yesterday wasnt the full tension of the braces.. it has yet to come.. zzz...

Now.. i can only depend on soft food, and new year is coming next week liao.. cannot enjoy le.. zzz... endure ba!!

Thank you people for your care and concern!! i will endure through this two years de.. haha!!
Desmond said, "you now take photo of yourself, two years later when you take out your braces and see that photo, you will feel very worth it.. yea.. i agree.. haha..

Hmm...

i just have to get use to it for now.. and everything will be fine.. the braces will be my girl friend for this two years.. i have to take care of her for now.. lolx..

Goose's dream!!

This is a korean song which i have being addicted to this few days.. its a very nice song!! haha.. it is sang by a singer named insooni..

I have changed it to my blog song.. enjoy :)

But.. i like the version where junsu and a girl sing this song.. the girl's voice is very powerful!! haha..

see you again soon..

2009-01-11T08:15:00.000-08:00

HEART BEATING TWICE FASTER THAN USUAL!!

Why?

Cause tomorrow i will be going to extract three teeth at one shot.. one is upper left fifth teeth from the front, one bottom left fourth teeth from the front and a left wisdom tooth =.= wisdom tooth is an operation.. im scare.. super scare..

Mum called to confirm with the dental what she will be doing tomorrow.. and she told her everything.. and best part is.. i requested to numb my whole body, and she say dont have to.. cause its.. not pain.. NOT PAIN?! you must be joking right dentist.. =.=

Well.. im so going to cry tomorrow..

And..

My heart beats thrice faster also!!

Cause..

Tomorrow is the release of O levels result le!! which means sec4s are getting back results le.. though im not the one taking, but.. i somehow felt nervous for them.. haha.. tomorrow will be a shocking day for me.. well done ar.. zzz...

Well..

All the best sec4s!! especially my cousin and my npcc sec4s!! :)

I know some of you arent confident enough about your results tomorrow.. but.. dont give up now.. trust yourself.. doesnt mean you think you screwed the papers means your results is doom.. there is no such thing.. only when you give up now, then hope also give up on you..

Well.. for my case instance, i thought i have screwed up my amaths and physics.. well.. everything turn out ok.. so.. trust yourself people!! i trust you!! :)

All the best!! im sure there is only tears of joy tomorrow!! do remember to share with me your joy sec4s!!

Alrights.. getting more and more nervous as minutes passed..

Hope i can come out of the operation hopping happily ba..

And if i can, i will make a trip down to see you guys received your results with joy..

Goodnight!! :)

all the best to you guys,
last time calling you guys,
sec4s~

2009-01-10T09:17:00.001-08:00

7TH JANUARY..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KAHWAI!! :)

Yo!! friends for like 5 years liao.. haha.. and its still counting on.. all the best in your studies.. do whatever you like.. 18 liao oh.. haha.. jiayou ba!! :)

9th JANUARY..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY YUHUI!! ;)

Continue to stay that cheerful friend!! you laughter liven up people's life.. continue to bring smile to us and bring it on to as many people as you can.. stay cheerful!! and all the best in your future!!

And..

10th JANUARY..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BIFANG!! =D

Haha.. though im not really close to you.. but.. thank you for inviting me to your birthday barbeque :) hope you like the present!! :) and all the best in your studies!! NYP polyians we are, see you around in school!! :)

Alright.. one shot say all birthdays ba.. haha.. hope i never miss out any birthday recently ba..

Yea!! one by one is turning 18 le.. mature lo.. from secondary one noob noob de.. now grown up le.. all my friends, jiayou!! :)

Well.. i will still continue on to search for ways to bring joy to different people in my life.. hope i can do that.. and by the time i can, im happy to be who i am..

However..

People in the world arent that good.. there are lots of backstabbers whom i have seen, there are people whom are just using you.. and yes.. teachers may be one of them.. im sure..

Well..

Live life the way you want it to be, if it cant be help, then let fate choose it for you..

That is all i guess..

Take care people!!

Goodnight!! :)

unknowingly,
my heart beats for you again..
unknowingly,
i think of you again..
unknowingly,
i miss you again..

2009-01-08T08:44:00.001-08:00

i have left many feelings in me now.. i dont know how to sort it out.. i dont know who to express it to.. i dont know how to say all out.. im thinking of you all the while.. and yet we arent close with each other.. we are just merely normal friends.. how i wish we were never normal friends to each other, how i wish we are more than what we are now.. but.. i dont know how to express feelings to a person now.. im all lost at expressing feelings, im all lost at telling someone i like you.. im all lost at loving a person.. im lost at caring for a special someone..

im lost..
but..
i wanted to tell you..
i...

2009-01-05T08:05:00.000-08:00

PAIN!!

Zzz... went to the dental today.. and the braces process started? haha..

Well.. today went to extract two of my teeth first.. its.. PAINFUL!! actually.. the injection part is not as painful as i thought la.. so.. quite ok.. hahas..

Well.. today extraction is minor.. next week im dead meat.. super dead.. its going to be extracting my 4th left upper and lower teeth and my two wisdom tooth =.= and wisdom tooth is operation.. im super scare.. freaks me off.. wonder how i survive next week..

Zzz... i have a french role play test which requires speaking on next wednesday and a final presentation for my semestrial project on friday!! and the operation is on monday and its takes at least three days for the wound of wisdom tooth to be healed? at least three days.. how am i going to do my french thing? wa.. why everything come at this time =.= good timing ar.. zzz...

Heard that ding xuan is going for wisdom tooth extraction this week, find out from him how it feels before my turn.. zzz... well.. let's just hope next week i can tell the dentist to knock me off to sleep and let her do everything she wants.. if not, you will see me crying out.. lolx.. not that serious la uh..

And..

I must thank my classmates for their care and concern :) when i went in to lecture hall, they saw me, talk to me.. but i cant speak.. of course they will like play with me la.. keep asking me to answer them =.= hahas.. but.. they are very caring group of classmates!!

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR CARE AND CONCERN CPT0802 PEOPLE!! :)

Today mr Lee Kuan Yew came to NYP.. Lolx.. there was NYP symphonic band performing at the theatre there to welcome him.. and we cant go home.. they blocked our way =.= okays.. just some informations..

Well, just received the photos taken on weiting's chalet :)

Here it is :)

okay.. there is smoke at that time, like heavnly feeling? =.=

birthday girl weiting and jianwen

birthday girl weiting and reihana

jiaxin and weiting

joycelin and weiting

venus and weiting

farris, azlam, vincent, hanis, vicky and weiting

leksheng, tingle, adrain and me with weiting

desmond!! weiting's boyfriend..
like a elder brother to me :)

my lovely class, CPT0802..
not all present..

okays.. this is bit dark eh..

Well.. that's all for today.. my mouth hurts.. going to take some rest..

Goodnights!! :)

im scare..

2009-01-04T07:10:00.000-08:00

SCARE!!

Argh!! tomorrow i will be extracting four teeth out!! once i think of it, it just scares me off.. zzz...

Hope it will be just fine bahs..

Yesterday went lizhen house there to celebrate zhengjie and jiawen's belated bithday!! hahas..

Okays.. last time those who were close to zhengjie de people went, close to cheryl de people went and three of my poly classmates went.. then there were zhengjie's whole family and cheryl's sister.. hahas..

It was fun :) to me la.. hahas..

Had barbeque, then cut cake and drank vodka.. 18 years old lo.. so.. can drink!! :) lolx.. i know im not.. but.. who cares :) lolx..

Its just a short simple session together, but.. its meaningfully spent :)

Well, these are photos for yesterday :) let them do the talking..

zhengjie's family

zhengjie's close friends in north vista

the girls of north vista too

Tada!! birthday boy and girl's cake

and our birthday girl and boy,
jiawen and zhengjie!! :)

look at lek sheng, your extreme right =.=

tingle and me!! :)

the four best friends..

another one..

finally, a group photo!!
look at zhengjie and lizhen's hands, seriously this is the first time i have seen them holding together :)
stay sweet!!

when will be that day for me?
hai..

2009-01-02T08:17:00.001-08:00

FIRST POST OF 2009!!

This is my first post of 2009!! and its going to be a sweet post :)

Firstly..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO BEST BUDDY, ZHENGJIE AND MY BEST FRIEND, WEITING!! :)

Yea.. no wrong.. the two of them are my classmates, and they were born on the same day itself!! :) qiao ba..

And..

Today, both of them have celebrated their birthdays specially planned by their love ones :)

For zhengjie..

Lizhen have planned out 18 different cards for him. the first card is given by zhengjie's family member when he woke up this morning.. then the following 17 cards are given by lizhen and 17 of his friends in school :) and its at different timeslot of the day.. and all the cards have lizhen's words for him for this long period of time together.. and its.. very very sweet words :) haha.. well.. im the one to help pass around the 17 different to my classmates and with their help to pass to him at different time.. and its a success :)

Sweet ba :)

As for weiting..

Her elder sister organised a chalet and bbq for her. weeks before her birthday, she email us to ask if we are able to attend bbq.. and want us to keep it a secret.. that is going to be weiting's 18th birthday surprise.. well.. all of us kept it secret.. and just now we went to the chalet, there are people from my class and some from B1, her sister and mother and her sister's friends and weiting's secondary school friends i guess.. well.. we all waited for the arrival of the birthday girl..

We waited..

And waited..

Finally, got a call from desmond that they are reaching..

So, we all got ready poppers, spray and standby outside the chalet..

And there..

The sweet lovely couple, desmond and weiting, walked in.. holding hands together with weiting looking very shocked.. hahas.. then everyone started to pop and spray at them.. hahas.. then weiting saw her best friends, and she hugged them and cried.. oh.. it was a very.. touching scene when you are there looking at them.. the birthday girl cried.. yea.. i dont know about the rest, but.. to me.. yea.. was very touching when i saw that..

Then started singing birthday songs for her, took photos with her.. she wore something like miss universe.. hahas.. yea.. the birthday person is always the biggest of all :)

There was a moment where weiting and desmond took photo together.. haha.. they really have the husband and wife look :) and im glad that weiting have found such nice boyfriend :) and desmond have found such cheerful girl..

DESMOND AND WEITING, YOU HAVE MY BLESSINGS FOREVER!! :)

Not forgetting..

MY BEST BUDDY!!

ZHENGJIE AND LIZHEN, YOU HAVE MY BLESSINGS FOREVER TOO!! :)

Yea..

Sweet and memorable 18th birthday for zhengjie and weiting right ? hahas.. yea.. i find it sweet :) though its simple, but.. is the heart that counts.. and this certainly put in lots of heartwork to it..

Hope these two best friends of mine have enjoyed this special 18th birthday and hope they will stay that cheerful always..

ALL THE BEST BIRTHDAY BOY AND GIRL!! :)

Well..

Reflections time after today.. hahas..

I felt.. i felt happy and contented with life when i have helped someone and accomplished the task. And that when seeing a person around me feels happy, like what have happened today.. zhengjie and weiting message me to thank me for what i have contributed to in their 18th birthday celebration.. i felt.. very happy and contented.. and this will be one of my goals in life..

To bring joy to people whom i know, whom i love and whom i care for.. no matter is it a guy or a girl.. still.. bringing joy and seeing joy in them brings myself joy and makes me contented in life.. and this feels good..

Yea.. i shall clear away my emo shit away, if not.. how do i bring joy to people.. hahas.. i must be confident to bring joy to people, i must be confident to clear away this emo shit in me..

Well.. seeing the celebrations today, im quite envy of them too.. yea.. well, honestly.. i have never spent such a nice and warming birthday, with many of your friends around with you, giving you their fullest birthday wishes.. with your dearest planning a heart warm party for you.. hahas.. and i must say, these are one of the most heart warming birthday celebrations i have seen and experienced in my life..

Well..

Different people have different life, and different life will have different kind of birthday celebration lined up for that person..

So..

Lets not envy people for what they have, instead giving joy to people before self is still always the best achievements in life..

That will be my everyday goal when im awake to face a brand new day, a new chapter of my life :)

Alrights.. that's so much of today..

Once again, my best buddy and friend..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!
MAY YOUR WISHES BE TRUE ALWAYS :)

Photos will be uploaded soon once i got them :)

Off to bed soon..

Goodnight!! :)

heart warming day..

2008-12-31T06:16:00.001-08:00

LAST DAY OF 2008!!

Alright alright!! this is last moment of 2008 already!! quick quick quick !!! what you havent complete, complete it now!! just a few hours only.. hahas..

CAUTION CAUTION!! this will be a super duper long post.. please bear with me :)

This post is going to be a post where i will write down my words which i will want to tell you guys before 2008 ends, do come by here to read it, specially for you all :)

Alrights, through this year, i have encounter lots of stuffs, both good and bad, both fun and sad.. well.. overall i think this year quite sad ba.. alot of unhappiness happened..

Feburary
Like relationship, broke up with her seriously hurt me alot, the sadness have being lingering in me all this while.. from start of the year till now, the end of 2008..

March
Hmm... also spent a birthday which i dont really regard it as a memorable one.. course of her and also got scoldings from parents on my birthday itself.. well, luckily i have my friends with me :) thanks guys !!

April
Moving on to new school, nanyang polytechnic, makes me look at things differently.. let me see lots of things in life and get to know great people like my classmates :) things are still not bad when start of poly, but first result of poly sucks..

Hmm... NVNPCC have campcraft competition and we got into finals again!! :) well, must say this year competition wasnt a lucky one.. everything wasnt smooth enough.. from trainings to preliem to finals.. saw many of them cried, saw their tears and laughter during the whole process.. well.. that is a touching one.. we came in 4th and 5th.. tears shed when results announced, everyone leaving the competing ground with tears on their faces, both guys and girls.. well.. its tough to accept the result after long trainings, but its not winning that matters.. its the process that matters the most.. i can feel their sorrow when they cried, but still.. they are very good already.. determination and endurance i have seen in them, that is all they need to take home.. not that trophy, but the hardship.. well done teams!!

May and June
Went for june CI course, J08, was fun and memorable one.. its nice knowing all my squadmates and batch mates.. sad thing is have to cut hair =.= well.. was worth it ba.. and yea.. posting results came out, was deeply disappointing knowing the posting.. and was sad with officers.. for what they have said in the past and now.. for what they have guarantee us and saying another things when posting is out..

August
08/08/2008 was the day.. the day where they proudly march out as GUARD OF HONOUR contignent during north vista national day celebration 2008.. yet again, they have spent lots of trainings under the hot sun and the cold rain, taking their time off after school to train.. i must say they have marched out proudly and spent every minute out there well.. i feel so proud of them!!

08/08/2008 was also the day when my beloved sec4s threw their berets high up in the sky.. that day marks the end of their four years of service in NVNPCC.. hmm... well.. im sure some of them cried.. their last moment wearing full uniform together.. im sure NVNPCC will always stay in their heart, it will always be their second home..

First time carrying out survival training camp at pulau ubin as CI.. well.. met fun partners and have a small number of idiot partners.. met nice and caring cadets too :)

September
Its the month of her birthday, bought a small gift for her.. but in the end i have no courage to give it to her.. instead, i threw it away myself.. went to cocoa tree and started working there.. knew a caring supervisior, june :) and nice working partners, abby, michelle and zantee :)

October
Step back to school after a good one month plus holiday.. well.. some changed and some remain unchanged.. started normal school lessons and have fun with class :)

December
Have spent wonderful times from 22/12 till 25/12 with my juniors..

22/12/2008, the day where all the sec4s dressed up smartly together and have their last section of their POP, dinner and dance 2008.. recalled many of their past times and have fun during the whole event.. well, hope they always remember that day.. DnD 2008 :)

23/12 to 25/12.. had a chalet with sec4s.. hmm... have fun times with them and some emo times alone.. well.. overall, i have enjoyed with them :)

Till then, 31/12/2008, the very last moment of this year..

I have left many words for you guys..

Firstly,

To my parents, daddy and mummy..
thank you for caring for me throughout the past 17 years including this year :) sorry for shouting at you all at times.. both of you have worked hard and gave me the best that you have given me.. im contented already.. i truly appreciate your efforts.. daddy, hope your leg will recover forever and the sickness wouldnt be back to bother you anymore.. well.. i know your wouldnt be here to read what i have written for you.. but still.. i wanted to tell your that im proud to have you as my parents!! i love you daddy and mummy!! :)

To my grandma, my two aunts and my brother..
Ah ma!! thank you for looking after me when im small.. bringing me to school when small, comb my hair for me before i go school and cook my everyday meals for me when im small.. sorry i sometimes never go back to your house and chat with you, you are my best ah ma!! :) thank you ah ma!! my two aunts, thank you for giving me support!! :) giving me encouragement at times!! :) and bro!! thanks for everything that you have gave me this year :) all the best for your army!!

To my dearst 4e1 usual peeps..
Hey peeps!! one year past, and we are one year matured already.. thank you for being here with me during the times when im down!! your never fail to bring a smile back on my face :) i miss the times with you all during school :( hope i can meet up with you all often!! friends forever!! :) cheers!!

To my mei, peiyi..
Yo mei!! well.. dont be too disappointed for not being with him.. able to like someone and being like by that someone you like is considered fortunate le.. not like me.. never be able to try to like another person.. hmm... remain this happiness that you have found!! looks like you have wonderful poly friends.. enjoy your years in poly :) and thank you for sparing me with your ears when i need to pour out my heartfelt words.. thank you mei!! stay pretty and cheerful!! :)

To my three other CIs, kah wai, janice and jessica..
We have went through CI course, we have gone through so far till today!! thank you for being with me always.. no matter the good the bad, you have spent bravely with me, we have faced obstacles together.. sorry for showing my temper at times.. five years of friendship, and it will continue on for as long as it can be :) cheers CIs!!

To my sec4s..
Hey.. all the best for your O level results.. im sure it will be just perfectly fine :) well.. there is more road to walk ahead in your life, dont ever give up on yourself!! keep striving high and aim for the best!! UOPA gold this year!! thank you for all of your efforts and hardwork!! i will always keep them in mind.. my always sec4s, cheers to you guys!! :)

Edmund:
Yo CI!! welcome to this family!! all the best in your future and look forward to working with you often in the future :) stay handsome!!

Ding Xuan:
Dingding!! welcome you to this family too!! i will also look forward to working with you in the future!! Hmm... no matter what, continue on as CI!! dont because of small things and you gave up CI, jiayou!! you will have my support always :)

Steffie:
Hey.. dont be kuku head anymore.. be confident of yourself ar.. its only when you see confidence in yourself and that is when you will succeed!! No matter what, sir milfred will always support you too!! :) all the best in your future ahead!! keep in touch!!

Shijia:
Yo !! well.. you too.. must be confident of yourself!! dont always question yourself.. you are doing perfectly alright!! keep it up!! :) must try to tougher up at times, dont let people see your weaker side, hide it whenever you can!! but still, sir milfred will give you my support always too!! jiayou in your life ahead!! remember to contact!! :)

Long Xiang:
Long ge!! slim down in 2008 ar.. well done!! must a happy year for you ba.. well.. dont because of appearance and let it affect the things you wanted to do.. no one on earth is perfect, they have no rights to pin point on you.. so.. be confident ar!! natural is always the most handsome side!! all the best in your future!! :)

To my class CPT0802..
Yo guys!! nice meeting you guys!! though its not a year that we have met, but still.. i have enjoyed with you all.. thank you for the fun and laughter you guys never fail to bring to me :) looking forward to the future years ahead with you guys :)

Zhengjie and lizhen:
Yo zhengjie!! my best buddy!! thank you for being such great partner!! look forward to seeing more opportunities to work with you!! stay happy with lizhen always!! :)

Desmond and Weiting:
Yo lovely couples!! stay happy together always!! :) and thank you desmond for bringing up laughters to me :)

JianWen:
Dae!! talk softer in public please.. too loud too loud!! lolx.. joking joking :) well.. its nice knowing you and working with you all this while :) dont be too discourage in your studies, you always have this friend of yours who is just a phone call away to help you :) im more than happy to help you with your studies :) cheers man !!

Reihana:
Yo!! have being playing tennis some time ago.. hahas.. continue to work hard to play till school team!! i know you can do it!! i can forget about it.. lolx.. but no fear.. as long as there is milfred, you will never train alone!! :) cheers hana!!

To all my friends..
Yo!! nice knowing you all!! wishes you all the best in whatever you do!! stay healthy, be happy!! woohoo!! :)

And lastly..

To Gloria..
Hey.. im not sure whether you will come up my blog and read this, but.. i hope you do.. well.. just want to say.. this year so much happened.. both of us changed from a known friend to a total stranger.. i dont know what have happened.. but i just want to tell you, all i hope is just a simple friendship with you.. this is one of my resolution for 2009, hope it will come true.. its only you who can make it true.. just a simple friend, even if its a hi-bye friend, im contented already.. as long its not a total stranger..

Well.. first portion is some highlights of what have happened in 2008 for me.. and second portion will be some words that i would like to tell some of you.. hmm... but.. not biased ar.. just that too many people liao.. jiu wrote some nia.. sorry about that!!

Alrights, people.. enjoy your new year ahead!! :)

say byebye to 2008..
and hello 2009!! :)

2008-12-30T08:58:00.000-08:00

DIZZY~

Woo.. the medicine is making me dizzy.. wonder i can hang on during lesson ma.. zzz...

Hmm... tomorrow is just a half day school.. hahas.. but.. tomorrow we going to know our Biochemical Science and Engineering Maths common tests de result liao.. zzz... maths i still no worry for that.. is the Biochemical Science =.= sure fail.. if pass, that will be miracle.. lolx..

Today im very dulan.. early in the morning when i go and take a train down to compass to change bus, once i tap in, the security woman jiu want me go the security table there to check.. i was holding on my laptop and carrying my black crumpler bag..

DO I LOOK LIKE A TERRORIST?!

She just open my bag, then close back.. im super dulan in front of her.. like im rushing for time liao.. i just stare at her, ask her is there a problem? i think she herself look more like a terrorist la.. dont tell me what my crumpler look like those "bulky bag" hor.. please la.. i have being taking my black crumpler and take trains.. dont see they check me last time.. this time that fcuking INDIAN woman jiu check, she got nothing better to do is it.. no one to check want check on me? since your job is free, go help wash toilet la.. the toilets outside mrt is always dirty de.. GO AND CLEAN!! DONT WASTE PEOPLE TIME!! fcuking indian.. so many adults carrying more "bulky bag" than me, dont see her go check them.. this kind of people is just there for me to whack on..

Nevermind.. tomorrow if it goes again, too bad.. that indian is going to get attitude from me..

Alrights, time for bed.. medicine is making me dizzy already..

Goodnights..

many words left unspoken..

2008-12-29T08:12:00.001-08:00

SICK :(

Zzz... im still feeling very sick.. though i look fine on the outside, but i somehow just feel very weak on the inside.. save me!!

Kept shivering in the night, blocked nose again.. zzz... what happen to my immune system? why arent you fighting with me? im fighting, where are you guys? zzz...

So, friends.. if i dont eat in school, dont ask me why.. course i wouldnt feel like eating.. yea..

Well, first day of school today!! :)

I was seriously stunned, stunned by many many of my classmates.. they changed alot.. lolx.. no comments about that.. just.. STUNNED!! hahas..

Normal routine lorx.. just have lecture and practical and home sweet home :)

Hmm... can see our Organic Chemistry practical teacher misses us bahs.. can tell from the way she treated and talked to us.. hahas..

Then after school train down to ang mo kio hub to look for some stuffs, cant find it, went down with jianwen, reihana and tina to bishan to get the things we are looking.. and finally.. we got it!! :)

Well.. i have spent lots on christmas that week, and now im going to spend more.. why??

Course.. its birthday after birthday!!

30th december is joycelin birthday
2nd january is zhengjie and weiting birthday
7th january is kahwai birthday

Though is just a mere four people birthday, but it can cost alot le wor.. but.. hope they will like the present we gave them :) especially those coming birthday and whose birthday has reached.. hahas.

Today super sway lo.. go school, my crumpler kena BIRD SHIT!! YES!! NO KIDDING, ONE BIG PATCH OF BIRD SHIT ON MY SHOULDER PAD!! =.=

And i realised it only when im in school toilet.. slow eh.. maybe it dropped before i board bus, which means.. people saw it =.= zzz... super sway..

Lucky that pile of shit dropped within these few last days of 2008.. if it drops on the beginning of 2009, that bird you better watch out.. you arent lucky anymore.. i confirm hunt you down, shoot you down with whatever i can use, skin you alive and boil you till you die die die!!! lolx.. think too much.. if only i can spot that bird then carry out my plans =.= maybe this pile of shit wanted to end my 2008? lolx.. must be positive!! hahas..

And all thanks to that bird, my bag has to be washed, and im currently searching for bags to use.. im short of bags!! =.= zzz... who can spare me one? lolx..

Well, that is about all.. i can feel myself burning liao..

Going to bed soon..

Goodnight everybody!! enjoy the last two days of 2008!! smiles :)

just want to be friends,
hope it wouldnt change your thinking towards me,
ought to say,
im sorry..

2008-12-28T08:27:00.001-08:00

ZZZ...

Tomorrow is the start of school again..

Meaning reports will soon come in again.. projects will continue to pile.. and exams will start to stress each and everyone of us.. great.. why only two weeks of holidays?! why?!

It seems like i havent spend enough this holidays.. zzz... when next holiday comes, will be start of new school for JC students and new batch of poly and JC students.. how to enjoy like that.. zzz...

Well..

If you know the joy of fun, no matter how it is, you will be joyful and spread joy to everyone.. hmm... dont know what crap am i talking anyway.. but.. hope everyone enjoys :)

Zzz... still feeling sick these few days.. shivering in the middle of the night, hands and legs turned cold, blocked nose, sore throat and cough.. dont tell me this is going to be the way that im welcoming 2009 hor.. i will die of pain!!

Please la uh.. let me recover fast.. three more days nia.. zzz...

I have being shivering in the night ever since i came back from chalet.. why?? eat medicine is still the same..

Am i really sick? or its just.. without you?

I dont know.. and i hope i know..

Well.. going to take a rest now.. lessons resume tomorrow!! sian =.=

Spend your 2008 well.. 3 more days, anything you regretted not doing or have done this year, think through and never bring it forward to 2009.. or rather what you have being thinking of doing in 2008 and its not done, DO IT NOW!! leave no regrets when it ends :)

Goodnight people!! take care!! :)

i hope this time my heart doesnt play with me anymore,
hope its you that i will be looking for,
you..

2008-12-27T06:33:00.000-08:00

PHOTOS ARE UP!! :)

Dinner and Dance 2008 :)

our four hunks ..
ding xuan , edmund , shawn , weijie

WHAT THEY NEED TO DO ?
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BLOW CONDOMS!! :)

Mr Lee doing the demo :)

weijie blowing his condom..

shawn's turn..

edmund next..

ding xuan looking at his newly blown condom, see his face, full of curiousity.. hahas :)

finally~
our four hunks with their four blown condoms!! :)

choosing the biggest, blown condom..
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the winner is

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edmund!! :)

but.. wait.. not too happy.. there is more to come..
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he is going to be licked by four girls!! with mayo at his hand, his two cheeks and his nose :)
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steffie going to lick the mayo on edmund's nose!!

and..
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tada!!

she licked, look like she kissed.. lolx..

mdm Lim's son, bing bing!! cute ma ? :)

small santa!! :)

watching the presentation for the sec4s, there on the screen shows me at the front, with the sec4s behind me.. this was taken while they will in sec2s.. fond memories.. i will miss them all :(

emilie :)

steffie :D

shijia :D

janice :)

4th Batch NVNPCC CIs,
kahwai , janice , milfred :)

4th and 5th Batch NVNPCC CIs family
edmund , milfred , janice , kahwai , ding xuan :)

Chalet with juniors :)

Well.. this is who i have being spending with these few days.. and its a memorable time spent!! i will miss them all ..

yet another memories created in my heart,
never to be lost,
always kept in me,
thank you sec4s for this memories..

2008-12-26T08:25:00.002-08:00

BOXING DAY!!

Lolx.. just some random words.. hahas..

Hmm... i was shivering yesterday night, guess i got a fever liao bahs.. now still feel cold, nose blocked and my bones have those suan suan de pain.. im sure you all know how it feels.. like each time you going to have a fever that time, your bones will start to feel suan.. i always have this feeling when im going to have fever.. zzz...

Actually dont feel liike going out today, but.. nan de my dad's leg is okay and he ask us to go out and have dinner, zai sick also must go!! if not, ever since he came back from hospital that time because of his leg, he never ask the whole family again le :(

Hmm... at first i accompanied my brother to forum there to meet one of his friend friend? hahas.. hmm... forum, that place i only go there once.. and is last year, when i have my off day from work and went to spend the whole day with her at the toy r us there.. yea.. really one year past~

Nevermind.. everything ended.. why think that and her for..

Hmm... then met his friend.. went to her company, prudential? dont know how to spell la uh.. i accompany him is just to bring him to forum, in the end i was asked to go the company and listen to their presentation!! total sian =.=

Listen listen lo.. then after that went to plaza singapura to meet my parents.. dine at cafe cartel!! hahas!! hmm... my first time eating there.. bit suaku la uh.. but.. not bad.. i like their drinks :)

Then after that shop shop jiu go home liao.. mum want to catch the little nonya =.= zzz...

Hmm... i think through.. what can i do in my life ahead? everything seems so.. bored.. meaningless.. there is nothing that im looking forward to.. not even school.. am i just purely going to let my life rountine around the few old same things everyday? or is there anything or that special one that i can spend with everyday so that my life wouldnt be that boring? i dont know..

Well.. i guess life hasnt being too good for me since start of this year ba.. hope everything will go well when 2009 arrives..

Alrights.. off to bed soon..

Feeling cold..

Goodnights..

i saw you today,
and i felt,
happy..

2008-12-25T07:14:00.001-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :)

Hohoho!!! yet another year of christmas have arrived!! time really flies ~

Alrights, i have being spending wonderful times during these four days with my beloved sec4s :)

It started off on 22nd december, its my sec4s having their dinner and dance in school.. its a nicely done dinner and dance :) its a four hours event, but everything seems like a two hours event, it ended so fast :(

Im sure they have enjoyed during the dinner, having lots and lots of fun and laughter together as a squad. though im not in their batch, but they made me part of them, they made me belong to part of their family, and im very happy to join this special family, im glad to have them :)

On the 23rd to 25th december, i have organise a chalet for my sec4s too.. everything went well except for the rain, which spoiled the mood during barbequing.

But all and all, i have enjoyed again with this family :)

I have lots of things to say to them, yet i dont know how to say.. i dont feel like coming home after spending days with them, i have a feeling of missing them when the chalet is getting to an end.. course i know this may be the last time im spending time with them, this may be the last time im seeing them as a squad.. they are leaving soon, after they received their results..

Good times always end faster than bad times, why?

Well, to all my dearest sec4s,

firstly, i want to apologise for not organising a good chalet for you guys, this chalet may seem alittle bland for you all, if im given another chance to do it again, i will want to organise a fun and memorable chalet for you guys.. hope you guys have enjoyed this chalet.

Well, four years past.. you all have matured and grow.. and you have endured through these four years of hardship together. Dont let this friendship just stop here, let it continue on forever, bring it along to wherever you will go. Only this friendship can bring you memories, let it push you to move on when you met difficulties in life, still remember the photos that you have done? it says NEVER ALONE..
always remember that you will never be alone wherever you go,
there will always be 21 of your squadmates together with you,
moving and motivating you in the life ahead of you,
you will not be left alone in life to walk on your own,
they will always be there for you..

thank you sec4s, i have enjoyed being together with you all..
you have being wonderful juniors all this while..
i have seen you guys grow, from your sec2 2IC, to your sir..
this is a memorable journey,
and if i can,
i will hope to walk this journey with you guys..

there is more from me to you,
well, i shall keep it in me..
just a simple sentence for you guys,
all the best sec4s!!

Well, hope i can spend yet another journey with them..

There is this feeling in me, a feeling of missing people.. hmm... who is it, i dont know.. how it came by, this i know.. it came when i left them on bus 89 today..

Alrights, there are photos taken these four days, i will upload them when i got them =)

Lastly, once again,

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!! :)
MAY ALL OF YOUR WISHES COME TRUE~

P.S : this song, I CAN GO THE DISTANCE, are meant you guys sec4s, continue to go this distance ~

hope to see each and everyone of you soon,
thank you sec4s..

2008-12-21T08:35:00.000-08:00

PHOTOS OF AREA 7 CI CHALET ARE UP!! :)

inside chalet using eye power :)

looking for?

where is wanting's kite? Oo

hahas..

going to the park!! :)

1,2,3,4

my bravo squadmate, my stc Ci partner, my area 7 CI partner, my friend, SHENN!! :)

me, kah wai, shenn , janice

4th Batch NVNPCC CIs, milfred, janice and kah wai
5 years of friendship and still counting on..

Tomorrow is the day!! my secondary fours juniors having their dinner and dance!! their very last time in npcc together le.. dress well people!! :)

congratulations to you,
you have finally..

2008-12-18T05:43:00.000-08:00

BACK!! :)

Hahas.. im back from area 7 CIs chalet!! haha.. though i went there for a day la.. lolx..

Okays.. the chalet started on the 16/12 to 18/12.. hmm... i went on the 17th dec lo.. which is yesterday till this morning..

Hmm... this chalet is counted successful la.. except for some calculations of money and some CIs didnt come when they agreed in the first place..

Yea.. at first we all were like.. hmm... how to say.. totally out of the world like that.. but.. soon soon soon... started to clique with them and joke.. haha.. yea.. it was fun having to talk to them like how it use to be during the atc and stc.. hahas..

This time round i didnt barbeque la.. never bring washing kit.. so.. yea.. stay in the room, they keep bringing food in.. lolx.. then we all were like enjoying the xiao niang ren and eating.. hahas.. feel bad for those who help us with the barbeque of food..

Then started eating food, playing card games.. hmm... learnt a new game call 猪.. haha!! absolutely fun playing with them!! loser do forfeit.. haha!! first shenn tio the forfeit, she went next door to take a number from a guy!! and the number is still stored in my handphone la!! haha!! then second round chee eng tio.. went the other door, knock and got a girl number, and is inside my phone too!! but.. trust me.. i doubt you will want that girl number.. haha.. okays.. so bad.. hmm... got people give attitude to chee eng when he asked for number.. zzz... then we got complained two times!! haha!! we were guessing if its the one next door that give attitude to chee eng who complained de.. evil shit!!

Hmm...we also went to the park to fly kite, play soccer and volleyball.. wanting, you are pro at flying kite sia!! =)

Hahas.. then we stay awake in the chalet, joke and joke.. they are funny people!! :)

Lastly,

PENG SIONG, DANIEL, LEON, SHENN, PATRICK, THANK YOU FOR BBQING FOR US THE WHOLE NIGHT!! APPRECIATE THE THINGS YOU HAVE DONE!! THE FOOD IS NICE!! :)

CHEE ENG, THANK YOU FOR BRINGING LAUGHTER TO US THE WHOLE NIGHT!! :)

and to all other CIs,

THANK YOU!! HOPE TO WORK MORE WITH YOU GUYS IN THE FUTURE :)

Taken photos with shenn's camera, will update it when she sent me :)

Alrights, one event past.. tomorrow going to swim in the morning with gerard and buy some clothings with kah wai and janice in the afternoon :)

Alrights..

Hope to see those people whom i missed so much soon..

Goodnights!! :)

you are there too,
but i couldnt see you,
guess we arent fated bahs..

2008-12-14T07:40:00.000-08:00

SUPERMAN RETURNS!!

Haha.. sound bit suaku la uh.. hahas.. just watched it on television? hahas.. didnt watch before.. lolx.. hmm... quite nice i guess? hahas..

Every super hero movie ar.. the story line is standard de.. always got that super hero and a girl.. then got baddies.. then ar.. always when want show how the hero save people right.. they always have a scene on robbers robbing bank la.. if not the muscem de.. superman one is the part got robber rob the bank then went up the rooftop and the robber use the heavy machine gun swip the police then in order to show how poerful superman is.. he went in front of the machine gun and walk towards it with the robber shooting him like mad already and he has no injuries? hahas.. same for spiderman and batman movie lahs.. lolx.. well.. i guess that is the part that fantasize us to watch it bahs.. i guess.. hahas..

Hmm... this two weeks of holidays, not only to have fun.. but.. to train up my physical fitness also.. cannot always sit in front of laptop and do lap reports la, study la and play games.. sooner or later ar.. year three napfa will fail ar.. then have to enter a month earlier for NS lo.. haha.. train, train and more trainings are all i need for now!! :)

Hmm... i can say life isnt that good afterall.. after that incident happened.. hmm... soon to be a year lo.. and yea.. im seriously still stuck in here bahs.. still stuck in 21/02/2008.. maybe i will remain in this date for years bahs.. though everydayis changing date, but.. to me.. it just seems like it happened yesterday and i cant get it off.. yea.. glad she is having a nice life now.. just hope i can get out of it like her real soon bahs..

And ar..

I hate the number 21 sia!!

Firstly, it is the date which i mention about just now.. which is a day i dont want it to happen but it happened.. and i scored 21 points for L1R5 for my O levels.. =.= zzz... dont ever mention 21 to me, i will eat you up!! hahas..

Hmm... next week have to pack up my room lo.. before i go out with friends and everything.. and also help my parents in cleaning up the room.. my brother is in army le.. short of one person to help.. so.. must clean lo.. hahas..

Hahas.. alrights.. think i will stop here bahs..

Enjoy your holidays people!! :)

Goodnight!! :)

hope you wouldnt find it weird if i were to tell you something,
something from my heart..

2008-12-13T08:26:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS!! :)

Yea!! that is the word!! holidays!! hahas.. finally ended my common tests on friday.. hmm... friday paper was biochemical science.. zzz... fail is the only word i guess? hahas.. failed liao can still so happy eh.. hahas.. everyone is like that also.. lolx..

The process of the whole test was funny.. we enter the hall.. started our test exactly at 9am.. then there is this guy who is late.. he came rushing in.. so call run down the steps, then when reaching near thetable where lecturer always stay there and give lecture there, i think he somehow trip on the last step and there he goes.. bong bong bong.. i was like writing my answer, then i heard this sound.. i looked up, and saw him~ yea.. you know you know.. some of us in the hall was trying not to laugh, but.. a person burst out laughing.. so~ there it goes.. the whole lecture hall de students lauged.. haha.. kind of bad la i know.. that guy sure very paiseh de..

Hmm... then was like.. stoning there for the paper.. most of us la.. hahas.. some of them stare in the air with the hand holding the pen and stone.. then awhile write some words then go back stone.. lolx.. well.. guess that is the only paper that im seriously not satisfied with only bahs.. the rest im happy with it :)

And..

Yea!! once again, its my two weeks holidays!! :)

Thought its just a simple two weeks, but.. i got many programmes lined up le :) and alright!! im going to spent it meaningfully lo.. hoho.. not intend to work this month.. enjoy bahs.. hahas..

So..

All polyians, enjoy this short two weeks of break, before we go back and get ready for the major tests coming up near chinese new year..

Alrights, think i will stop here bahs.. going to play lo.. hoho..

Take cares people :)

Enjoy your night, goodnight!! :)

do i miss you?
yes, i seriously do..

2008-12-10T07:27:00.000-08:00

What is happening this few days? i seem to have changed alot.. im starting to feel a sense of belonging with you all.. and this feeling still builds on.. im in a confused state.. everything is totally different.. i would want to understand each and everyone of your thoughts and feelings.. if only i have this ability to listen to all those whose thoughts i want to listen to.. its hard to make wild guesses on what a person is thinking, sometimes wrong guesses bring out different outcomes and different impression you have on that person.. grant me the ability to listen, to listen to each and everyone's thoughts and feelings..

My life is in a mess now, i need a change in my life..

I want to forget you, forget the past, forget who and what has done those unpleasant stuffs to me.. i want to forget all.. its just so hurtful to keep them till now.. it hurts alot..

I cant bring myself to think of you and the past anymore, i must stop already..

And kept moving on in life..

if only i can..

if only i have you..

just you..

if only i can..

2008-12-08T09:15:00.000-08:00

ENGINEERING MATHS IS KILLING ME!!

Woo.. havent being posting for so long..

Anyways, a short post bahs.. hahas..

Hmm... have being busy with common tests.. zzz... though only got three papers only, but still its stress.. zzz... organic chemistry paper is down.. and now im still practising engineering maths for tomorrow.. maths need lots of work.. and its all amaths.. zzz... have to revise through again.. heard that after common tests, second part of engineering maths is teaching partial fraction? haha!! hope its not hard..

Alrights.. going back to practise maths again and off to bed..

All the best polyians!!

Especially my class, B2!!

And they are..

Leksheng, vincent, weiting, desmond, zhengjie, lizhen, jianwen, reihana, jinsiong, yongkang, venus, tina, tingle, joycelin, jiaxin, hanis, vicky, noora, farris, azlan, jasmine, sharfina and atiqah..

Jiayous for your common tests!! dont give up!!

you have changed.. are you the person that i once known for four years and still counting on? you disgusted me, that's the impression you gave me now.. you know who you are..

what is happening now?

2008-12-05T08:05:00.000-08:00

ONE PAPER DOWN!! :)

Hahas.. one paper down liaos.. which is.. organic chemistry!! hahas..

Hmm... should say this paper is quite okays la.. i find it okay.. hahas.. pass-able.. hahas..

Two more papers to go.. next tuesday is engineering maths and friday will be biochemical science.. zzz...

Faster pass bahs this two papers.. and a long waiting list is waiting for me during holidays :)

Alrights.. going to rest liaos.. didnt have much rest this few days.. zzz...

Take cares friends..

And..

Goodnight!! :)

whenever i see you,
my feelings is there with you,
are you the one that i should follow,
and not her?

2008-12-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

WOO!! LONG TIME..

Long time no blog liao lo!! haha!! dont know like how many days liao.. maybe got a week le bahs.. hmm... can say is quite busy with studies and stuffs.. also can say im tired lahs.. hahas..

These few days, just basically my normal routine of life.. going to school in the morning, then go for work during the weekends.. yea..

I end my work already yesterday.. so call my last day lahs.. hahas.. i will be going back next year when january starts..

Yesterday, my supervisior, june, she went to prepare a small little gift for me:) hahas..

She gave me a packet of chocolate from switerzland and a candy bar:) haha!! she say i have being a great partner to work with.. and the space will always be open for me to go back.. woa.. thanks june!! :)

Yea.. she is also a nice, helpful and caring supervisior of mine:) yeap.. i will go back to there to work when next year starts..

Alrights.. today just went for my second discussion for my braces.. and.. its.. SHOCKINGLY EXPENSIVE!!

Okays.. here it goes.. doctor explain the whole process to me.. i need to extract four teeth, which one teeth to be extract costs around $65 to $85.. then i need to do one round of cleaning first, which each round costs $60 and above? then need to do fillings, which cost one teeth to be $50? and i got four teeth to be filled.. then add on the braces, which is around $4200 to $4800? just by the starting process, you can see the sum already.. which almost add up to $5000 le? plus plus plus... i dont know if my wisdom tooth needs to be extract out mahs.. must see if it will get in the way.. if it needs to be extract out normally, it will cost $80 to $200 per wisdom tooth? and if it needs to be extract out by operation, it will cost $600 to $1000? but.. that can be paid by medisave..

Okays.. here how huge the sum is.. when i first saw this, i really.. i really never ever once in my life time im so scare.. im so worried.. im so afraid.. i really never have this feeling before.. till today, till the cost appears.. i serious stressed, down.. im very tense up.. okay.. i dont know what to do..

Sorry dad.. this is seriously a huge sum.. i guess my dad have never fork out so much for himself before.. and now..

Argh!! what to do??

I just very stressed.. seriously stressed..

Got so much of tests coming up.. and this just came in and join in adding stress to me..

Help me!! i need help.. please..

Alrights, i think i shall get back to my studies again..

Take cares people..

Goodnights..

im alone,
in a dark room,
im scare,
will anyone be there for me?

2008-11-26T08:32:00.000-08:00

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Maison bienvenue

Welcome home!!

Haha!! welcome home juniors :)

Haha!! hmm... what has happened today? hmm... i can say there is nothing much? haha.. just normal other days lo.. study lo.. and as usual.. today rained like the past wednesday.. haha..

After school went to do semestrial project 2 with zhengjie and jian wen. Then jiu stay in tutorial room till like 7 plus? haha!! do maths e quiz la and play counter strike :) haha!! then jiu went back home liao..

I guess life this few days will be a boring one bahs..

Maybe it will be better after my common tests..

So.. jiayous!! :)

Hmm... tomorrow going swimming with gerard foo!! haha!! first time going swim with him.. lolx.. random random!! haha!! :)

Alrights.. guess not much things to update too..

Time for bed..

晚安!! :)

what is happening to people?
stop being that childish,
you can never survive in this world with such childish-ness,
wake up and mature!!

you..

2008-11-25T09:03:00.000-08:00

COMMON TESTS!!

See the two big words there? yea.. that is what all polyians will be stresing about for now.. haha!! mine starting next friday? and its Organic Chemistry lahs!! zzz... chiong chiong and chiong!! haha!!

Simply just love today :) course instead of releasing at 6pm, we were released at 3pm!! haha!! last two periods cancelled and mr robert's class end early.. which leaves us to go home at 3pm!! haha!! i get back home and take a long nap sia.. so shiok!! :) if every tuesday can like that jiu heaven lo.. but.. fat hope sia!! haha!!

Tomorrow having french class again.. seeing that crazy teacher again lahs.. save me save me save me!!! argh!! :(

Yay!! my juniors are coming back home tomorrow!! :) woo!! so happy!! :) haha!! hope they have enjoyed themselves these few days.. cant wait to hear stories about their trip sia :) haha!!

Yawns~

Hmm... that is all for today i guess.. time to sleep..

Goodnights people!! :)

i have decided,
this will be the last time i make this decision,
if you really have people in mind already,
all the best to the both of you,
and i shall say bye to you..

my final decision,
to wait..

2008-11-23T08:26:00.001-08:00

BACK FROM WORK!!

Going crazy liaos.. zzz... i was thinking of many things during work time.. i can think till customers ask me something i can lag there for dont know how many seconds then answer them.. ops.. sorry about that..

As usual.. people just keep eating my sweets lo.. adults also dont know how to read.. what's wrong with them =.= children i understand.. children see me standing there looking, they also very zi dong de lo.. adults ar.. wa piang.. i stand there, they still reach their hands in and take and eat leii!! if i can, i will CHOP of their hands!!

Hmm... other than that, nothing much.. just all the usual routine lo..

Oh!! bought another FBT singlet.. haha!! black and white de!! woo!! can say is aim that shirt every sunday i go for work? haha!!

Hmm... think i next month will stop work bahs.. got common tests to study for, do house cleaning, go out shop with parents and my own outings with friends!! and of course.. sports!! :) haha!! work? aside lahs..

Alrights.. that's all folks..

Going off to bed soon~ super tired liaos..

Take cares people and..

GOODNIGHTO!! :)

i dreamt..

you told me you have someone in mind already,
and yet i was still waiting for you all along,
i cried in my dream..

i woke up..

knowing this dream will definitely be true one day,
or it has being true today,
its terrible to give up,
yet i know i must,
course your heart have long ago left me,
this i know,
though its just a dream,
yet it hurts as much as in reality..

now the question is..

to wait or to end?

confused with myself..

2008-11-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

STRESS!!

Zzz... time flies.. we have reach week six of this semester liao.. two more weeks will once again be my common test week le.. and first paper is most probably be organic chemistry? zzz...

Stress!! must start study!!

Study le then can enjoy liao.. after that will be holidays le.. endure!! i must!!

Hmm... nothing much today.. just stay at home, eat, sleep and play.. study abit also lahs.. haha..

Next week will be busy sia.. got two french assignment to be handed in and got my sem project 2 de mid term presentation to prepare and present sia.. zzz... next week two more lab reports are coming my way also.. die =.= busy busy and more busy ...

Hang on!!

Alrights.. today is the second day that my juniors went to perth.. wonder how are they doing so far? still fine ma? haha..

Hmm... think that's all for now.. nothing to post about.. haha..

Off to bed soon~

Tomorrow is another long day of work liaos.. zzz...

Goodnight people!! :)

I seems to have some feelings for you, i dont dare to look at you when you are in front of me, i somehow miss you when you are away and i will think of how you are doing this few days. these are signs which i always have.. when i have feelings for someone.. Am i alright? is this fake feeling? or simply.. i have feelings for you?

come back quickly, gal..

2008-11-19T07:55:00.000-08:00

GOING GREEN!!

Haha!! going green this time for my blog!! hope its nice? haha.. here's how i got the idea of going for a green and black colour as my theme for my blog.. lolx..

I was studying for biochemical science test yesterday night.. was studying till very pekchek liaos.. went to blog.. and decided to change to my blogskin.. since biology somehow always have the link to the colour green de.. haha.. jiu.. tada!! green and black blogskin.. lolx.. quite lame la ar.. hahas..

说到 biochemical science.. today i had my biochemical science test!! zzz... it was.. eh.. hmm... can say okayokay la? can also say fail liaos? haha!! what is the first thought that runs to your mind when you hear biochemical science as one of the module and relates it to my course of study? surely is some chemical stuffs rights.. but.. in fact.. its not!! totally not lahs!! its all biology.. bio, bio and MORE BIO!! argh!! im going crazy liaos.. i thought i secondary four drop biology i can dont need to touch it liao.. but.. it comes out here.. right in my face!! stupid biology =.= i hate you!! hmm... anyways~ quite lucky lahs.. this term learn de i have learnt some during secondary three.. still not bad.. but.. as time passes, i dont know whether i will pass mahs.. let's hope i will bahs.. zzz...

Woohoo!! toilet lights spoiled!! i bath in the dark!! cant see clearly.. when you cant see clearly and you bath ar.. arh.. you know what i mean la huh.. hahas.. random random~

Alrights.. back to my day today..

Hmm... its wednesday, french day.. zzz... yet i have suffered again for two hours of french.. sian.. i just hate that french teacher sia.. why i will kena such a teacher!! argh!!

Im okay with every wednesday lesson, except that french lorx.. which worsen my wednesday.. zzz...

Alrights.. after lesson i went home with tingle and venus.. it rained again!! see!! every wednesday sure rain one.. it has being continously raining for four weeks of wednesday liaos!!

Hmm... went home to put my books and stuffs and went back to school again..

COURSE..

I WANT TO GO SUPPORT MY WEIRDO MEI!! HAHAS!! :)

Today NYP organise a polite road run i think.. got many schools came and participate.. schools like singapore poly, ite, temasek poly, my school students etc etc de lahs.. came down to race.. see them run ar.. makes me want to join my school's atheletics sia.. but.. i have yet found my school's volleyballers!! argh!! i must check volleyball first then decide whether to go atheletics!! where are you volleyballers!!

Anyways~ saw peiyi and meiyi in the stadium, she was getting ready for the run.. she show me the someone someone.. haha!! quite okay lahs.. just that.. yea.. she knows, i know and those who knows will knows what will continue after ther just that.. yea.. talk alittle then they call for poilte race girls event liaos.. jiu.. all the best to her and off she goes.. then jiu run run and run!! then jiu chat with meiyi for awhile while waiting for the girls to run back to the stadium..

Hmm... she didnt get to finish in top ten.. she finishes somewhere in the middle of the batch of runners?

But..

YOU DID WELL!! :) ONCE YOU ARE ON THE TRACK, YOU ARE ALREADY CONSIDERED GOOD!! WELL DONE!! :) KEEP RUNNING MEI!!

Remember~ peiyi-running-for-life? haha!! :) yea.. keep running for your life bahs!! :) jiayou!! your gor will always support you de!! :)

Hmm... didnt wait for her i jiu went home le.. quite tired lahs.. somemore she is going with her team, so.. bit weird la ar..

Haha!! on the way home, in bus 82.. i saw eileen!! eileen tan!! 4e1 chairperson!! :)

Its like when i board the bus, i never look all the way to the back end of the bus.. once i see got seat in the front i jiu quickly sit liaos.. then once i sat, my phone vibrate.. saw eileen's name, i wonder why eileen will call me sia.. thought got outings :) but.. i answered..

"Hello hello milfred, turn behind turn behind.. im at the back!!" she said it in chinese lahs.. lazy to type chinese la.. then i turn back and saw her!! she sound like doing some secret mission sia.. call me that time like very secretive, cant let anyone hear her like that.. haha!! chat with her for awhile and off she went..

So.. people.. if you saw me on bus, dont be annoy that i didnt see you hor.. course im always like that de.. dont dare look straight and scan the whole bus of people.. so.. pardon me for that.. just give me a message, a call if you see me and i didnt see you..

Lastly..

My beloved edmund, ding xuan, shi jia, steffie, jia hua, emilie, long xiang, samuel, benedict and wei jie are flying to perth tomorrow le!! woo!! going to see them off tomorrow~

Guys, enjoy yourself at perth :) this may or may not be your last trip together as 5th batch nvnpcc le.. your are leaving npcc soon.. so.. take this last chance and enjoy and recall the times again.. enjoy friends~ all the best for your trip and create as many memories as you can during this trip.. i will wait for your return.. to share the chou shi that happened wor~ hahas!! :) jkjk..

Alrights.. ending here i guess..

Off to bed liaos..

Goodnighto people!! :)

i cried..

2008-11-16T08:44:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM WORK!! ZZZ...

Hmm... time now is.. 0045!! haha!!

Damn tired tired tired.. though is just a day of work, it still drain out my energy.. zzz...

As usual, during work time, i have seen customers picking my sweets and eat!! with bare hands somemore!! they really want to die is it!! cannot tahan these kind of people de leii.. every sunday go work already tired liaos, still need see those 不自动de people!! argh!! want bash people liao..

Today.. the last thing of my work, i felt very pissed off.. everytime we do closing, we have to count our sales and bring it down to the admin room to let people calculate mahs.. then my company is in the advance lane, once i reach they will count my sales first and i can go le.. while the carrefour cashier have to wait.. today i was rather late.. caught up with some calculations.. then when i reach there, i advance up and mine count first.. then i hear this cheena girl at my back say, "算钱算这样久，十点收还算这样慢.."

I tell you.. im damn pissed off when i hear that!! and you may say they might not be referring to me.. but.. at that moment, im the only non carrefour cashier there.. and all carrefour cashier ends at 1030 de.. of course is referring to me lahs!! damn it!! im damn pissed.. super pissed!!

Ta ma de cheena girl!! you where not happy? buay song dont work lahs.. complain complain.. go back your country and be your country pumpkin la!! dont come here kpkb me!! this is the rule set by your boss, not me right? why need to say me? i never offend you right? dare jiu go up to your big boss and scold and complain.. dont say in front of me.. no use de.. i know your country pumpkin always do that lahs.. but.. mind you.. here is not your country!! mind the rules here!! you dare scold your boss, i dare wait till late night then my sales can be counted!! challenge me la!! dumb hore!! bitch brain!! cheena lan!! suck shit and die la!!

Damn pissed!! Argh!!

Alrights.. let's drop the topic.. the more i say, the more i pissed..

Hmm... now is christmas season!! woohoo!! everybody is busying preparing for christmas!! i saw lots of families, daddies mummies buying christmas tree, the decorations and the spray!! haha!! it brings me to christmas mood too!! haha!! too bad.. dont know if my brother will return from army ma when it is christmas.. hope he will.. course i need him to help me with the christmas tree in my house!! every year christmas is he set up the tree de.. dont know this time he is able to make it home to set up mahs :(

Studied my biochemical science test during my break time.. fortunately, i can memorise at that kind of situation sia!! haha!!

Going to study hard for every small little tests, its these tests that can at least maintain my grades.. yea.. jiayou!! :)

Saw many cute babies today.. mostly are those pui pui de.. chubby chubby de.. haha!! got one very cute.. buy sweets from me.. take money from his dad, then run towards me with the packet of sweet and money.. haha!! somemore he is still not stable in running and walking.. imagine this baby running towards you because of sweets!! haha!! that baby brighten up my day alittle :)

Yea.. babies can be cute and brighten your days.. they can also be nightmare to you.. haha!! think carefully before you decide to have babies people!! haha!! random~ ops..

Alrights.. that's all for today..

Off to bed already~

Wee~

Good-da nights people!! :)

argh !!
pissed off ..

2008-11-14T07:50:00.000-08:00

ONE YEAR PASSED..

One year have passed.. i still remember deeply our high tea together.. that was the last moment we have together as school mates, as classmates.. was a memorable one..

Lots of memories were left since that day.. everyone dressed nicely, taking pictures and everything.. that was the one and only moment everyone dressed nicely as one..

Still remember mr malvin lim and the choir members sang you raise me up.. that was one of the part where i think its very touching.. yea.. four years in the school.. we turn from an inmature kid to a rather grown up teenager.. we have learnt whats wrong and whats right.. all these we went through, its teachers and friends who have being through with us in the school.. yea.. i should say.. they really raise me up.. and i miss them..

And another touching part was when all teachers wrote their wishes for us in the slide show and show us.. especially our npcc teachers.. put down all our primary school kid photos.. haha..

Now.. one year have passed.. its another batch of secondary fours turn.. everyone is moving on.. yet.. i feel that im still in NVSS with all my friends and teachers.. and unwillingly to move out.. its just that nice being with them in school, i never will want to forget them all.. i miss them.. i love them all..

如果可以，我很想换回时间，改掉我的怀习惯，好让你开心..

我很不想让你走，我很想留住你和你的心..

请愿谅我的不成熟..

soon to be a year,
yet we are still stranger to each other..

2008-11-12T08:15:00.000-08:00

A BORING DAY MAKES AN ALREADY BORING PERSON MORE BORED..

Basically, too bored le today!! :(

Im starting to hate tuesday and wednesday sia.. tuesday is because of long hours of study and little of rest time.. wednesday is because of FRENCH class!! starting to hate french class, partially because of the teacher.. she just.. argh!! cannot stand her jiu correct liaos.. lucky my french class de people quite hyper de.. haha!! got zheng jie, yong kang, venus, vicky, cai juan, shi hui and ralph.. these people are the ones who kept me going to french class :)

Learnt more things about french lorx today.. zzz...

I realised every wednesday it will bound to rain de.. lolx.. let's see if next wednesday will it rain.. haha!!

Today during lunch time, some of us went mac to have our lunch.. haha!! i always enjoy being with desmond and company.. its their jokes that makes me laugh.. that makes me happy.. haha!! today desmond crack a joke about tata sauce!! haha!! you want to eat tata sauce only? or you want to eat both the package and the sauce? haha!! only us can understand :)

Yea.. they never fail to bring smile to me.. really enjoyed having class with them :)

After class went to meet mum at somerset mrt station to take a x-ray of my teeth for the braces.. raining heavily when i reach there.. zzz... and my slippers is like.. no friction liao? haha!! walking like duck all the while, scare later i walk too fast, i will slip and fall in the public.. rather walk like duck than to fall in front of people!! haha!!

Had my x-ray, waited for 10 to 15miutes for it to be printed out.. once i received it, i took out and see.. and.. it shows my teeth really suck balls.. i look like a monkey from side view sia!! with the mouth like monkey.. omg.. that is jialat sia.. zzz...

After that went to pass the report to the dental and home i go~

During first appointment, dental say she predict i have to extract six teeth.. base on her experience lahs.. on the spot when she say, i was like =.= jaw open big big, six teeth leiis!! i so going to faint after that.. can knock me out like how doctor do that for patient when they having operation? if can go ahead man.. i let you knock out, you extract ten also can.. zzz... after she see the x-ray then she will confirm with me again.. hope its lesser!! please please please!!! im freaking out everyday!! argh!!

The time when she calls again, will be the day i can jump liao.. half of me want to put up the braces fast, another half doesnt want it to be up so fast.. contradicting sia.. zzz... many people keep giving me the courage to go and face the pain..

And i MUST!!

Must overcome my phobia le!! be a man!! not ah gua!!

Alrights.. sleeping soon ~

Dreams people :)

the last caring words you said,
记得听歌不要听太大声,
i want to hear it again,
as i miss them greatly..

2008-11-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

BACK TO POST AGAIN!!

Its like woa lahs!! quite long never blog le.. haha..

This few days was kind of busy with lab report, lab reports and MORE lab reports!! one week can like need to do three lab reports and study for test? when can all these go away sia.. miss last semester.. only one lab report to do every week.. this semester one week confirm chop chop need do two lab reports la.. zzz... im sure not only me, my dear classmates are all tired of doing lab reports le.. jiayou CPT 0802!! :) we started off our journey together during orientation, we won the first competiton during orientation, this is where we belong, now and forever!! let's keep this spirit going!! go class!! go B2!! :) alrights.. that was quite a random one lahs.. but.. just want to encourage my class to push further on, to endure all these stupid lab reports.. its worthwhile doing it.. so.. gambateh!! :)

Yea.. past few days my dad have being in great pain in his room. Everytime i came back from school or work, i will hear his suffering.. the pain that his leg caused.. and he still go to work with that pain on his leg.. even on a sunday, with his leg pain, he still go to work.. all i know is.. he cares for me.. just because of my braces, he have to work extra despite bringing the pain wherever he goes.. and all i know is.. he is such a wondeful dad, who loves me alot.. and i do love him as much.. thank you daddy!!

He is getting better this few days.. hope it wouldnt happen again le :(

And..

To all my friends.. just a simple..

Thank you to all of you who gives me encouragement and blessings :) each and every word of yours counts in me, and i truly appreciate them :)

Thank you!! :)

Alrights.. today.. hmm.. is a tuesday, as you know.. its just a long day again.. haha.. was an hour late for class today.. pro sia.. couldnt wake up this morning.. was sleeping soundly like pig.. zzz... this feww days keep late for like an hour class? if not jiu skip class de.. i msut stop this le!! i must!!

Hmm... during break time, me, desmond and lek sheng bought the laptop skin at the IT fair in our school. haha.. when its done sticking on my laptop, then i will post it here bahs.. cost me 16dollars, woo~ though is like cheaper than usual, but.. still.. zzz... haha!!

Today during PED tutorial, venus and reihana have some photo taking session.. haha!! then jian wen and i were sitting behind them.. so.. jian wen was like keep wanting to get into the picture.. haha!! i join him too!! lolx.. will get some photos from venus and post it here some other days :)

Alrights people.. going back to do lab report liao.. sian.. zzz...

Have a nice night ahead friends~

Goodnight!! :)

想遇见你,
但又不敢看着你..

2008-11-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

SAD AND SCARE ..

Tomorrow's my first dental appointment.. im feeling scare.. all along i have being afraid to go dentist, even just a simple cleaning im scare.. not say go and put braces.. zzz...

Dad's sickness happen again :( his leg starts to swore and hurts again :( omg.. everytime i see him in great pain, and i couldnt help him, i felt useless.. im scare.. im sad..

Please, please dont play any tricks on my dad anymore.. please let my dad recover, dont let him suffer the pain, i dont mind having this pain, just dont let him suffer anymore.. please.. grant me this wish :(

praying hard..

2008-11-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

TIRED ..

Lolx.. Hmm.. have school today as usual.. went for a two hours lecture and slack two hours then go for Organice Chemistry tutorial for an hour and slack two hours and go for Organic Lab for an hour plus then jiu go home liao.. haha.. sian rights..

Hmm... im scare this semester i will screw up things.. course its like different from last semester.. i dont what is it.. just cant get the motivation to get into doing lab reports and projects.. i cant think when it comes to these topics!! argh!!

And yay!! my dad have promise to let me have the braces just now.. yea.. he is working hard for this 4k for me.. i told him i will save up and help also since its my teeth.. he told me that money isnt the problem, the thing he hopes is that i can study well in poly and stay healthy in life.. that is what he cares about.. he dont mind working more to earn these braces money.. alrights.. this is the first time my dad, for my 17 years in life, have ever told me this kind of words.. normally father dont say these kind of words de ma.. they usually show their care through actions instead of words.. and mum will always show through words like nagging and also actions la.. but.. im just very touched to hear what my dad told me just now..

THANK YOU DADDY !! I PROMISE I WILL STUDY HARD DURING MY POLY YEARS AND NEVER TO DISAPPOINT YOU.. I PROMISE..

And yes, parents are always caring for us wherever we go, whatever we do.. they dont seem to show it in front of you.. but.. in their heart they always do..

And i always love them as much as they love us :)

Sleeping soon ~

Goodnights ~

im starting to feel nothing for you ..

2008-11-04T07:45:00.000-08:00

ZZZ...

Feeling sad.. life just sucks for me.. absolutely sucks.. hai.. nevermind..

Wanted to put braces.. discuss with my dad.. told him the price and everything.. hai.. guess from his looks.. its a no ba.. putting hopes that i can straighten up my teeth.. but.. guess my hopes were gone ba.. wanted to pursuay dad to agree to it.. but.. he is sick.. i guess if i continue on.. it will just worsen his condition ba.. hai..

Guess i will just have to save up my own money to put up this set of braces ba. 4k plus.. how am i going to save.. how long will i take? just feeling.. very sad.. guess i will just have to bear with it and work and study at the same time ba.. to quickly earn this amount of money..

Hai..

breaking down..

2008-11-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

BACK TO POST AGAIN !!

Haha!! Hmm... yesterday went back to work the whole day..

There is a new girl that cocoa tree hire.. her name is michelle.. a N level student waiting for results.. haha!! she is those guai guai de girl, not like those typical lians.. lucky~ if not.. my day will be damn bad.. haha!!

Hmm... she is from westwood secondary.. which i dont even know where it is.. haha!! get to know her bit more during the whole day of work together. Hmm... she has alot of things that is like her.. she is from st.john, she loves babies.. she is cheerful.. okay la.. not that many.. but.. three is counted as many le.. haha!!

At first she heard my name, milfred.. hmm... she thought im those ang moh speaking guy.. lolx!! then the first sentence she came work i jiu ask her 你说华文hor? she was like.. shock tio.. haha!!

Have fun working with her.. teaching her this and that is fun!! a cute little girl.. lolx.. chatted about her life, my life.. time past faster!! haha!! but.. too bad.. i think i can only see her for that sunday only :( sadded.. hope can see her again at work bahs..

Today.. as usual.. went to school for lecture and lab only..

Woo~ today QC lecturer was fuming sia!! haha!! we suppose to have a test today during lecture.. instead he conducted a lecture first.. then we were like.. cher.. can hurry give test ma.. he very du lan.. he angry sia!! his whole face turn red la!! haha!! but.. feel very bad lahs.. he is there to teach us, thought we dont understand a single shit.. but.. he is stilll our lecturer afterall.. sorry mr lai!! :(

After school went koufu with jian wen, reihana, venus, tina, desmond, weiting and jia xin to have japanese food!! Ate tamago don!! haha!! very nice!! Then after that went home lo..

Hana went japan last week and she bought us a sake cup!! haha!!

Tada!! :)

Okay.. i admit this picture kind of sucks.. haha!! my photograhy skills sucks!! haha!! she also gave us a small packet of biscuit!! haha!! very nice!! too bad i ate in school.. so.. didnt have the chance to snap a photo of it.. haha!!

THANK YOU HANA!! :)

Alrights.. taht is all.. going to bed soon ~ tomorrow tuesday!! lesson.. 8am to 6pm!! damn it!! i simply just hate tuesday.. have to wake up early and go home late.. argh!!

Ending off ~

Goodnights!! :)

im running out of happiness..
just need you alot..

2008-11-01T10:31:00.000-07:00

SLEEPING~

Haha!! today i slept for such long hours.. lolx.. woke up in the morning, go market have lunch.. came back jiu sleep from 2plus all the way to 8pm? haha!! think im too tired liao le.. past few weeks have being sleeping less.. today ping ming sleep!! haha!!

Nothing much today.. just sleep.. haha..

I think it has being a long time since my whole family sat down together and eat le.. today finally we sat as a whole family and eat.. normally its either miss out my brother, if not miss out me.. think my parents are hoping that their sons will be together with them in their meals everyday ba.. sorry mum and dad!! will try my best to be back home to join you all for meals!!

Yesterday leiis.. went out with pei yi, yun jia and jessica!! haha!! originally want to watch the coffin de.. but.. jesscia saw the wrong timing at cathay.. instead of 7.15pm, she see it to 8.15pm!! lolx.. then we all change to GV plaza de high school musical 3!! haha!! it was the second time i watch it!! not sian leiis, course its a nice show!! :)

Saw xing yun and company outside mark and spencer, then after that see them again.. going home that time see again!! lolx.. qiao qiao qiao!!! haha!! i also saw my juniors!! steffie, shi jia and emilie!! haha!! O levels dont want study ar!! haha!! :)

Then after movie was like 11plus le.. then the four of us, not actually the four of us.. the three of them kwuang take photos near the top up card machine there!! so many people keep look at us la!! ps ps!! but.. so what if they look at us.. we have fun jiu hao le!! haha!!

Yun jia havent really upload all the photos.. but.. here are some of them ~

Upload more when yun jia sent them to me :) sleeping soon~ tomorrow got work~

Goodnight people!!

would you promise me..

2008-10-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

FEELING TIRED AGAIN!!

Zzz... maybe its due to playing badminton for long hours ba.. haha..

Today i played badminton with my class from like 2plus to 6pm? haha!! not tired is fake de la!! lolx..

Hmm... today nothing much happen.. just have tutorial, lecture tutorial and home sweet home liao. haha!! i just like mr kevin robert's class. Be it tutorial and lecture. Just simply enjoy it!! :) He makes me wants to learn, and continue to learn more.. haha!! :)

Bascially this is what have happen today lo.. haha.. nothing much la..

Realise gerard is a different person when he writes his blog. On the appearance he is always those gay gay type. After reading his post, hmm... just simply feel that he is a changed person. Not the different gay gerard we see, rather he is a guy who express his feelings well with words and full of emotional i can say :) So.. gerard!! try to express your feelings verbally!! im sure you can!! we are always the best partners to let you express out your sorrows :)

If you are looking for friends that are good looking, then im NOT your friend.
If you just want crap reasons instead of giving me a straightforward answer, you are NOT my friend.
If you take me as just a subsitute when you have nobody to accompany you, im NOT your friend also.

Quite angry about this issue. Just very disturbed by it. What is the problem when people are lacking in their looks? Doesnt mean you just void them off? Dont think you are pretty or handsome you can void people when they just sincerely want to be your friends. Retribution, believe in this word!! i promise i will curse and swear you if you are just that kind of proud people who thinks you are damn pretty or handsome and starting to void people off.

Being bearing my anger for this kind of people. There are some whom i treat them as friends, and yet their actions show their proudness and voiding people. Are you worth to be treated as friends with me?

i dont think you are..

pissed..

2008-10-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

TIRED!! :(

Im super tired today.. though lesson for me ends at 11am due to cancelled of french class. But i still feel tired. Why?! zhengjie felt tired too. After everyone went for ther elective class, zhengjie and i were staying in an empty tutorial room, play games, listen to music. Then a lecturer wants to use the room. So.. we left and went to block E to look for volleyball noticeboard. But it is nowhere to be found. zzz...

We read the schdule list outside the office, they have trainings on every monday, tuesday and thursday. Haha.. wasted a trip walking there. My block to block E is like one end to another Oo will die!! lolx.. intend to look for the coach tomorrow then~

So.. we make our way back, course zhengjie waiting for lizhen too. Then we bought bubble tea, and sat in another tutorial and rest.. it is when after we drank bubble tea we felt tired!! zhengjie say why we feel tired ar? Is it bubble tea got sleeping pill? haha!! maybe hor zhengjie~ lolx..

Then jian wen and tina join us after their japanese class and we did our sem project 2 de slides. friday going present it. Woo~ presentation again.. haha!!

Will be joining volleyball if we are allowed to. Wanted to join tennis team, but.. after beginner class, every class you go you must pay 10dollars leii.. and in order to get in school team you have to undergo a trial.. if you dont have a coach with you, no matter how long you train, you will never be as good as those with coaches de.. and if i keep going for class, which means i have to keep spending 10dollars, which i think i will get chop by my parents lo.. so.. come to a desicion to give up tennis ba.. just play leisure if any of my friends wants me to play with them. Maybe reihana will have high opportunities to enter the school girls team :) maybe just practice with her if she doesnt have a opponent to play with ba.. haha..

If im allow to join volleyball, i must play till school team lo.. must train.. haha.. pray hard that i am able to join in the volleyball team of NYP ba.. pray hard!!

Alrights.. That's all that have happen today. Nothing much actually..

Off to bed soon~

Tomorrow badminton game with my class :) looking forward to it, playing with them is fun :)

See ya!!

never fail to miss you everyday..
why?

2008-10-28T09:20:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS A TIRING TIRING DAY!! START LESSON AT 8AM AND END AT 6PM!! ZZZ...

Haha!! sian lorx.. what a day..

Hmm... today feel quite moodless leii.. dont know what happen sia.. haha!! so.. just have usual lesson till 6pm lorx.. then after lesson jiu head down amk hub to meet janice, gerard and kah wai for movie!! :)

Haha!! we watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL THREE!! :)

Its a super nice movie to watch!! go watch people!! its really worthwhile watching!! haha!!

Hmm... i personally feel that the movie somehow relates to our life. haha!! even though their high school is like our poly or JC la.. but.. the friendship and bonds together are just like our secondary school times together. Dont you think? i mean for those who have watched it. haha.. like their three years together, spent together.. play basketball and all together.. haha!! it is like secondary school life of mine :) except no singing la.. lolx.. then this time is their senior year and their graduating liao.. just like we are in secondary four and we are graduating.. those who have relationship like troy and gabriella. In the end they all went different university liao. Just like those who are still in relationship when they graduate and went to different colleages.. haha!! thinking too much liao!! lolx..

While watching the show, i recalled the times when we were having our high tea together. Miss the days back there :( and i also recall the times when my batch de prefects pass down that time, we did a dance. haha!! so many good memories, yet we cant represent them back in our life again. Some parts are rather touching la.. when troy and gabriella were together that time. Like near the ending, when the teacher announce who got what award that time, and the words that troy said, that was rather touching.. yea..

There is a funny part!! when sharpay was singing and waiting for troy to appear. haha!!

Alrights.. shall not say much :) people who havent watch must go watch wor~ haha!! very nice!! :) i enjoyed the show :) woohoo!! :) haha!!

Hmm... while watching the show, i was so hoping that she is by my side watching it with me. The times we spent together were recalled when watching the movie. Why? maybe i just still miss her alot ba.. or maybe the times spent with her is just so happy, and it will always just keep recalling them to let me see how lucky i am last time to have her spending time with me.

Well..

I suppose.. im just.. nevermind..

Alrights.. people listen to one the songs sang in the movie. I personally like this!! haha!! :) its call can i have this dance.. by zac efron and vanessa hudgens. enjoy~ :)

right here, right now..

2008-10-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

OMG!! I HAVENT BEING BLOGGING FOR SO LONG SIA!! ZZZ...

Okok.. this post shall sum up what i have done this few days ba.. will be quite long wor~ so.. bear with it people!! :)

Alrights.. Let's start off with friday ba..

FRIDAY,

still remember the cheesecake i mention that we bake on a thursday? haha.. i went to samuel's house to take a look at it after my school. Hmm... its okay la actually. It has the strawberry cheesecake taste, just that the appearance is not that appealing la. yea.. this picture shall tell you roughly how well we did :) we will improve de!! :) haha!!

Tada!! the cheesecake baked by yu hui, daphne, sam, me and kah wai!! :)

SATURDAY,

I went work. Work full shift, so.. nothing much to say about this day la. just purely working lo. haha.. oh!! saw nathson, he is also working in carrefour, but.. only temporarily only :( like two days only? zzz... thought got people i know de. zzz... alright.. that's all for a saturday..

SUNDAY,

Best day!! and yet a tiring day!! haha!! went shopping with janice, yu hui, sam and kah wai. haha!! we met int he morning at 9am, have breakfast at compass mac then jiu head off to marina square. haha!! i bought the crumpler bag strap, a top and bottom and a belt.. woa.. this few items spent me $111.90 liao lorx.. zzz... money hard to earn, easy to spent.. zzz... we shop from marina square to suntec to bugis to dhoby ghuat!! haha!! damn damn tiring.. dont know the girls can shop so long without getting tired la.. haha. actually.. i got many things to buy leii.. but.. dont want spend.. zzz... then for dinner, i treat yu hui, sam and kah wai just asia lorx.. haha.. saw emilie and steffie there!! they are giving efforts off studying!! well done!! :) after dinner we head down to mr ng's pool shop to pool. haha!! then chatted with him and home we go!! :)

How i wish i can spend yet another day to shop with her, i dont mind the tirness.. i just miss those days when we went to walk around.. i just miss the times she told me which style shirt i can wear,i just miss the times when she choose her clothes and ask me if it suits her ma.. i just miss the times when i have to think alot for her.. i just miss those times when i have to walk around shooping and thinking of new ways to give her present.. my brain was once filled with many ideas on how to surprise her everyday, and now my brain just totally blank out when someone wants me to think of present for a girl. After that day, i have never crack my brain again to think of present and ways to surprise a girl, and now im empty at it. How i wish my brain can start giving me ideas again everyday to think for presents and surprises for a girl, but not any girls, just the special her..

TODAY!!

I went sentosa with my 4e1 peeps!! :) haha!! woohoo!! enjoyed my day today too!! haha!! but.. one thing that spoil my mood is.. you know.. what public holiday is today, which kind of people came out.. and the majority of sentosa is like total darkness la!! haha!! suppose to meet at 11am at harbourfront station de, but.. im like very tired in the morning la!! jiu late lorx.. reach there at 1plus? haha!! i met up with yen teng first then both of us went in sentosa together. Once we reach there ar, siang yew jiu kuang ma the two of us!! haha!! especially yen teng, kena the most!! haha!! funny funny!! haha!! then we started playing volleyball!! its so fun today playing volleyball!! i truly enjoyed the games!! haha!! we started playing with a group of people, our age i think? haha!! then soon we found they are from sengkang secondary school la!! so qiao, nearby school nia.. haha!! we have fun :) haha!! then after that they left, the most woa thing when they left!! they shook all of our hands one by one!! haha!! so good of them :) see you people soon again!! :) then after that we play with a group of? eh. not actually mud la.. something like them la. but.. they are much better :) haha!! then me, sam, eileen, siang yew and yen teng crack jokes about the group of people!! haha!! very funny!! got what guang ying ma la.. got what shen la.. haha!! and lots more!! haha!! we play till six plus then went to change and went to vivo city to meet up with jia qi and zu ming.. on the way back in the monorail, we are covered in the sea of chocolates la!! cadbury chocolates!! haha!! we were like fainting liao.. haha!! then siang yew suddenly shout, then the whole train of people look at us, so.. paiseh la!! haha!! then siang yew was like.. i was just kidding de look.. haha!! have dinner at vivo city, jia qi, eileen and siang yew had superdog, while me, sam, zu ming and yen teng had food at kopitiam. haha!! then the four eating at kopitiam went home, while the rest continue on shopping..

Hmm... sorry siang yew and eileen, you all look rather pissed and disappointed that we never join you all for shopping.. sorry!! :( next time sure will de!! :) trust me, trust us!! :) haha!!

Aiya.. today never take photos together.. sad :( zzz...

Anyway..

SAMUEL, YEN TENG, JASMINE, PEI YI, SIANG YEW, EILEEN, JIA QI , JESSICA AND JIA QI..

THANK YOU MAKING MY DAY A BRIGHTER ONE!! REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF TODAY!! HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED TOO!! :) LOOKING FORWARD FOR MORE OUTINGS WITH YOU GUYS!! ESPECIALLY THE CHALET!! HAHA!! :)

Haha.. there sum up what i have done this few days.. never really go into details la.. if not.. dont know when then will complete lorx.. haha!!

Alrights.. going to sleep soon.. tomorrow lesson start at 8am!! omg.. faints.. lolx.. and it ends 6pm? argh!! but.. after that going watch high school musical with janice, gerard and kah wai!! haha!! update about the movie trip tomorrow!! :)

See ya soon, my good friends!! :)

And have a nice night tonight, goodnight peeps!! :)

next plane home..

2008-10-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

WHAT IS HAPPENING?! WHAT IS HAPPENING?!

My two best buddies are facing troubles. One is facing studies problem, another one is facing cash problem. How can i help them? i feel so helpless.. there is nothing much that i can do leii.. argh!! hate it!! such a useless friend.. hai.. i jux hope that they can solve their problems fast..

What is happening in the world? what is happening to all my buddies in NVSS?! what is happening!! We are all happy go lucky people when we were in secondary school, but now.. everyone is like.. having a bad life.. and seriously bad life. Why?! Why?! Just why?!

I dont know.. i dont understand.. can someone please help everyone.. change back all our life to how it is when we are together in NVSS. please..

Zzz... it has being bad.. this few days.. hai.. it sucks.. life sucks.. maybe im too comfortable with my previous life in my previous insituition.. now that everything have change, and im not use to it.. hai..

Anyway.. today after school i head off to SRJC to find yu hui and kah wai. Then lunch at qi ji at hougang mall there. three of us have laksa!! fantastic!! :) haha!! then yu hui was intending to buy ingredients to bake a strawberry cheesecake!! then daphne came to join us, she ate her lunch while me and yu hui was writing out the list of ingredients to buy. After that we went to buy the ingredients, while daphne and kah wai went to look for printing shop to print their PW things. Yu hui spent a total of 46dollars on all the ingredients la!! its like.. omg.. so expensive.. haha!! but.. nevermind la yu hui,, first time trying out is like that de. like what you have said, you will earn all this money back!! :)

Both of us went to and fro hougang mall ntuc and the shop which sell baking stuffs. haha!! freaking out course we scare we had not enough money. lolx.. yu hui manage to draw money from her bank, so everything was still alright.. the cost is settled. phew~

The both of us head off to sam's house first. There we starting baking!! haha!!

I am in charge to make the base of the cake!! haha!! i did before!! shu ping taught me last year!! haha.. and i learn from shuping course.. i wanted to bake a cake for her birthday. and yes i did it!! i manage to bake out a cake for her. haha!! all these start to flow in my mind while i was crushing the digestive biscuits and mixing them with butter and mould them in the mould. The memory was there, and i miss doing things for her. But.. its alright.. i cant do things for her anymore. course even if i can, she wouldnt accept it. Let's just.. forget it.. yea.. its the same base, the same method. But.. the purpose was different. hai..

Have lots of fun!! haha!! sam was like our supervisior la!! he keep walk around and like instructing us how to do, what to do. haha!! he is also our weighing boy!! haha!! Then they were mixing the fillings, while i do the base. Yu hui, sam and kah wai take turns to stir. haha!! they were like stirring till perspiring la!! especially kah wai!! lolx.. then yu hui was like keep taking tissue and clean for him. she keep using poking method to clean of the sweat!! haha!!

The base was ready, kept in fridge for half an hour, then kah wai was still stirring the fillings. At a moment, the fillings start to appear those like fats stuffs? omg.. its rather scary.. yu hui taste it.. she say is nice. but.. the appearance looks.. ee? haha!! Then we burn chocolates while melting them la!! haha!! have to scarifice sam de DARS chocolate :( ops.. sorry..

Have to trouble sam also to clean up the mess.. sorry sam!! :(

After that we went to play tai di and watch tv lorx.. and chatted.. then jiu home sweet home le..

Haha!! the cake is still in sam' house de fridge. It must be kept for 6hours. so.. only 1plus in the night then can take out :) yu hui collecting it tomorrow after their school :) so.. let's just see how it goes tomorrow :) our first bake strawberry cheesecake!! :) haha!! cannot fail!! lolx..

Alrights.. this weekend will be a rather pack one.. and a fun weekend too!! :) yea!! next monday holiday somemore, even better!! haha!! so.. will upload more when days passes!! :)

All people taking their O level paper,
hang in there!! you are almost halfway through.. dont give up till the very end!! keep striving hard!! jiayou people!! :) you can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha!! alrights.. hope everyone can live their life happily with no regrets, and keep enduring in whatever they facing. Good things will come, its just a matter of time only.. so.. must be positive!! :)

Haha!! goodnights!! :)

strawberry cheesecake :)

2008-10-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

IM SERIOUSLY PISSED TODAY!! VERY PISSED!! ARGH!!

Shall not detail it here.. im just.. argh!! many people told me to forget it la.. they are like that de la.. zzz... feel like just.. argh!! 看在他们说的话, i dont go angry them. I will just ren, and wait and see.

Anyway.. today had four hours of french la!! the whole class is like.. going to die liao!! how to survive la!! haha!! zheng jie was like.. can skip class? can skip class? haha!! then there was this girl from B5 i think.. she was like.. cannot take it also.. haha!! all of them funny la.. lolx.. teacher was speaking four hours of french to us? zzz... haha!!

Here's what i have learnt today.. just some introduction la..

numbers in french,

1: un
2: deux
3: trois
4: quatre
5: cinq
6: six
7: sept
8: huit
9: neuf
10: dix

Some introduction of myself,

Bonjour,
Je m'appelle milfred,
J' habite a punggol,
Ju suis etudinate,
Je parle anglais, francais et chinois,
Ju suis singapourien,
Au revoir.

Haha!! chim right.. that's what i have being listening to for four hours la!! haha!! faint faint.. basically, you should roughly understand what it means by all this ba.. haha..

We have a role play in french class today. We suppose to pair up with each other, then role play a series of questions to ask each other. Like we dont know each other then met on streets then talk talk like that. Haha.. Course my class got five person in the same french class as me, and i was sitting in the middle, teacher say role play in pair of two? then im suppose to pair up with a girl from B6. haha!! okay la.. still can chat well with her :) her name is Cai Juan, french name is Gisele :) Had some small chats during the planning of role play, quite fun talking to her actually :) so.. let's just see how it goes in the future french class working with her ba :) haha!!

Dont know can pass this module ma.. sian.. this term got more of memorising stuffs.. must start memorising now if i want good GPA!! haha!!

Alrights.. think that's all for today.. See ya people!! :)

i will think of you,
i will care for you,
maybe im really in love with you..

2008-10-19T09:24:00.000-07:00

YOS PEOPLE!! IM BACK TO BLOG!! HAHA!!

Hmm... let's start with yesterday ba.. haha.. went out with bravo squad, but.. sad to say.. its suppose to be an squad outing.. but.. only me, shenn, daphne, benjamin, michelle, wenyi, zhanke and aloysius turn up only.. zzz... and im quite pissed with a person.. shall not saya here.. initially have a plan to go sentosa de. But.. due to the lack of people and equipments, we change it to shopping and talking in vivo city? haha.. had long john silver and pool at timezone. Woa!! im amazed.. my skills eventually improve? initially it sucks to the core.. haha.. maybe is after yu hui taught me!! thanks!! :) haha!! then we jiu slack around.. went to subway course some of them want to eat, i bought subway lao hong biscuits:) then guess what.. I SAW NEO SIANG YEW!! haha!! poor thing la he.. at first i saw him. he was sitting alone.. like being abandon like that.. haha!! then i join him to talk until his break time over.. haha.. recalled the times when i worked at toy r us vivo, eileen at zara vivo and siang yew at G2000 vivo.. haha!! everyday disturb each other de.. haha.. still remember a time samuel came.. together with siang yew, sam and me.. we waited for eileen to knock off from work.. then its a long time waiting.. then sam and siang yew jiu play with the models displayed in the cabinet. haha!! very retard la.. everyone looking.. haha!! but.. its funny :) their combination can make one laugh le :)

Then jiu wait for bus 80 go bugis street, saw veronica on the bus.. haha.. then when walk along bugis street, saw the kind of shirts im aiming for liao :) haha!! sunday going out with the three heavenly people liao :) then shop till i want le.. haha!! looking forward to sunday :)

Then nehh.. night time im damn pissed.. father always out of no reason give me attitude.. wanted to treat my whole family dinner course of my mum's birthday. Then my brother just came back from army ma.. dont know he will tired ma.. dont know he will sleep ma.. if he wants to sleep, then let him sleep. When he wake up and they are ready, they call me then i go meet them. but.. they didnt.. father still give me lan lan attitude, spoil mum's mood. im very fuck up.. seriously what is the problem.. always suddenly give attitude.. now i understand why i always give attitude easily le.. course like father like son.. how i wish i dont inherit this gene of his..

Nevermind.. had long john silver for dinner again =.= im scare of it liao!! haha!! then head home..

TODAY!!

I went to work again le.. now every weekend i will go back and work.. yea.. earn more.. haha!! nothing much happen today.. just work like mad lo.. today quite busy la.. today first time do closing with counting the sales.. wa.. very hard to count.. scare count wrong.. or short of money.. i die ar.. must pay back lo. zzz... yea.. that's so much of today? lolx!!

Tomorrow leii.. school should be starting to busy le ba.. labs and project will start to enter my life liao.. "great".. yea..

Also.. tomorrow is O level first paper!! haha!! i still dont know what i have being doing last year during this period sia.. haha!! and its so fast.. one year since we graduate le.. and i seriously miss NVSS times with my friends :(

Anyway.. good luck to all my sec4s taking O level tomorrow :) jiayou wor!! one month and play is all you have in your world :) haha!! jiayou jiayou!! dont panic.. though my result not good la.. but.. i can say.. it will be easy, it wouldnt be as hard and as scary as you thought it will be.. bourse we experience it le :) jiayou!!

Sleeping liao.. there is school tomorrow :( and a boring lecture tomorrow.. zzz... ok.. off to bed~

Goodnight!! :)

我爱上你了吗?
只有时间能告诉我..

2008-10-15T10:14:00.000-07:00

FRENCH FRENCH FRENCH!!!

Today started my french lesson!! haha.. words are hard to pronounce la!! haha.. today we learnt how to pronounce the alphabets in french? lolx.. not easy okay.. haha.. then we have our french names!! haha.. my french name for this french class will be xavier :) haha..

Let's try some..

letter a is pronounce as ah.
letter x is pronounce as iks.
letter i is pronounce as ee(something like me, pronounce it as ee)
letter y is pronounce as i grec.

Haha.. difficult to pronounce ba.. haha.. but.. quite fun la!! :) quite like it :) haha..

This module nehh.. quite dont like one module.. the biochemical science!! omg.. i thought i wouldnt touch biology liao la.. but.. still need touch sia.. zzz... today have biochemical first lecture, and it starts to introduce in those chim words that i studied when in sec3. argh!! save me!!

Then have an hour of maths lecture and tutorial for sem project 2 :) sem project teacher quite nice guy:) he gave us some ice breaking questions? haha.. he is first time teaching in NYP. maybe we are one of his first class ba.. haha.. he graduated from canada.. i think? haha..

Here is what he ask us..

1) think of your favourite pet, write down the adverbs that describe the pet. dont write out what pet it is.

2) write the adverbs use to describe your favourite colour, same thing, dont write out the colour.

3) write down the adverbs to describe your favourite body of water. for example, toilet bowl? ocean? river? lake?

4) you are sitting alone in a room on a chair, looking out through the window at a beautiful scenery. Suddenly someone pop out and draw the curtains, causing to lose sight of the beautiful scenery. write down the feelings according to how it happen. Meaning if you feel shock first, write down shocked followed by two other feelings. Write three feelings down.

Alright.. if you have done so..

Here are the purpose of the question..

1) these adverbs are words that you use to describe yourself

2) these adverbs are words that your friends describe you

3) these adverbs are words that tells you what kind of love life you like.

4) these adverbs are words that describe how you face death.

So.. is it true? i dont know.. its up to you to find out if its true :)

Yea.. so.. that is roughly a short summary of what happen today :)

Tomorrow lessons cancelled!! meaning.. NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!! haha.. yes!! can sleep longer le.. haha..

Tomorrow is also the day for combine people taking their o level practical paper.. good luck dear sec4s!! :) haha..

Alrights.. that marks the end of today..

Sleeping soon..

Goodnight everyone!! :)

long legged,
jiayou!! :)

2008-10-14T08:22:00.000-07:00

TIRED, TIRED, TIRING DAY TODAY... ZZZ...

Went to school at 7am? and i expect 72 to have lots of people? haha.. guess i was wrong!! it was empty? haha.. heng ar!!

Today lesson was from 8am to 6pm.. damn sian.. lucky this is the first week.. not much of teaching conducted..

Hmm... have my engineering maths lecture today, teacher set ground rules sia.. latest you can reach lecture hall is 8.20am? if not, say byebye to your attendance lo.. its like.. im one of the late comers? haha.. must make it on time on every tuesday morning!! if not.. jialat.. haha.. last term de maths teacher no ground rules? haha.. though her teaching is can say is jialat.. but.. still kind of miss her no ground rules times!! lolx.. continously 3hours looking at the maths teacher =.= that will be my first 3hours on tuesday.. im like.. zzz... =.=

After maths leii.. is my lunch break.. then after that have biochemical lab.. teacher conduct safety briefing and ground rules and all basic things that you will expect to hear when you go for first lesson.. her briefing is long lo.. yesterday de organic chemistry lab is super fast la.. today one leii.. =.=

Hmm... afterwards comes an interesting lecture? haha..its organic chemistry lecture!! lecturer.. mr kelvin robert!! haha.. im quite interested in his lesson? can say la huh.. haha.. he talks very fast, and the way he talks.. his like hypnotising us? haha.. all of them were like.. huh huh.. sleepy sleepy de face.. haha.. i almost fall asleep too.. but.. i will look forward to his every lesson, be it tutorial and lecture:)

Now comes the most zai part.. suppose to have project engineering drawing for the last two hours.. but.. whole waited for half an hour plus? haha.. all decided to leave!! haha.. we all went off at 4plus :)

Yea.. basically.. end of my first tuesday out of like 19weeks? haha.. 18weeks of tuesday to go.. jiayou!! for GPA.. for the future.. zzz...

Alright.. tomorrow going start my first french lesson.. looking forward to it!! :)

yea..
i think i shall stop it,
i know you are disgusted,
maybe i shouldnt care too much for you,
maybe i should just..
let go of you already..

2008-10-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS THE START OF A NEW TERM!! START OF A NEW DAY!!

Yea.. first day back to school again.. hmm... nothing change much.. my classmates and lecture mates are all fine.. no change.. except.. haha.. shall not mention!! lolx..

Today lesson suppose to be from 12pm to 4pm de.. due to today is the first lesson of lab for the last two periods, teacher only need to conduct safety briefing and we all can go le!! haha.. went off at 2plus? haha.. shiok ba!!

Today vinod gave us a small present from japan!! a tasty yummy biscuit!! :) haha.. it taste so good!!

THANK YOU VINOD!! :)

Hmm... after that went home, then yu hui, samuel and kah wai yue me to compass subway to eat!! i never eat la.. just have their cookies :) then me, yu hui and samuel went off to kovan, mr ng there to play pool!! bi fang meet us there :) haha.. then we play around 4rounds? haha.. im so noob at pool.. so many people teach me le.. i still cant get it well.. zzz... yu hui was like.. keep teaching me? haha.. thanks alot!! :) they was saying like samuel today was like jynx.. haha.. course everyone he pair with, will lose? hmm... haha.. got one round, is yu hui and samuel, then me and bi fang.. samuel start.. then no ball went in.. but.. the black ball went in!! haha.. we won!! lolx.. then he say ba-lei.. then he start again.. no four balls touches the cushion.. haha.. foul? lolx.. then was keep joking say he is jynx of the day.. lolx.. then had many funny actions la.. jump ball till the ball fly out of the table la.. lolx..

After that went home? haha.. and i am blogging lo.. haha..

Sian.. tomorrow lesson from 8am to 6pm!! omg.. im so going to faint liao.. zzz...

So.. going to sleep le..

Goodnight buddies~

Praying.. praying that all my friends will promote smoothly to JC 2 with no worries.. please help them..

Friends, dont worry too much.. im sure all of you will get promoted de.. dont give up on yourself.. the very first obstacles is yourself.. if you give up already.. nobody can help you :( jiayou!! keep fighting!! dont give up.. i wish all of you the best~

friends..
fight till the end,
even if it is the end,
dont give up,
if you have no one with you,
you still have this friend,
who will always be with you..

your friend,
milfred..

2008-10-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

Read Carefully and Understand the Meaning:

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug>until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.
Send this on to everyone special in your life, even the people who really make you mad sometimes. Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted.
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To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
T! he value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

P.S: This is a mail sent by one of my friends.. remember, read carefully and understand the meaning :)

friends..
who could i really trust?
im starting to wonder now..
is looks one of the cateria for choosing a friend?
if for you it is,
then i shall say bye to you, long years of friend..

2008-10-11T09:13:00.000-07:00

TODAY POST WILL BE QUITE LONG.. SO.. BEAR WITH IT!!

Haha.. today i spent my day with tai yu, yu hui, daphne, aeroy, tingting, valerie, samuel chia, guan hua and kah wai.. today we went esplanade there for rowing competition!! haha..

We met at hougang interchange at 10am this morning.. then we take train and head down to city hall and walk to esplanade there for the competition.. haha.. we were told that we must reach at 11.30am for registration.. event start at 12plus? but.. they last minute say change to 2pm start la.. zzz... so.. we register at 11.30am and went to walk around.. its actually a water feast happening at the platform near the esplanade.. the one where national day people perform there? haha.. yea.. jiu on that platform got this water feast.. not much people la..

So.. we waited like 2hours? haha.. then yu hui came and help us buy lunch.. had chicken rice and soya bean!! lolx.. then after our lunch, we go chech out about the competiton.. and ts like our turn? we were all like.. omg.. we just ate leii.. haha..

So.. unlucky me.. went first lo.. with the rest of the three boys together in the next competition.. throw me alone go compete first.. zzz... so.. i went.. and starting to row.. its actually those stimulation, those when you go gym and train your arm muscle by pulling de.. haha.. i eventually pulled 2000m myself? omg.. that is tiring.. haha.. i was rather pissed with some thing that one of them say just now.. damn pissed.. towards me say this, towards another person say another thing.. i was pissed.. real pissed..

Anyway.. i was wearing slippers.. then i took off and row lo.. then got friction.. my two toe ar.. wa.. the skin kena blisters.. i was like.. pulling.. at first i was still on the screen de.. but.. not long after that ar.. i disappear from the screen liao.. the rest all row dont to where liao la!! haha.. and they are people from thailand? people from dragonboat and canoeing team? all muscles dua dua de la!! how to win.. lolx.. hmm... there was ACJC.. the one i remember the most.. haha.. they are pro la.. they are all dragonboaters and canoers ma.. of course better than us la.. if we win ar.. aiyo.. disgrace lo.. but.. its impossible de :) haha.. they pull must shout la.. lolx..

During rowing ar.. course i need row 2000m ma.. im like.. 500m just pass ar.. i was like.. huh!! still 1500m more? then reach 1000m ar.. im like.. 1000m more? i only row 1000m only? omg.. im fainting liao.. lolx.. but.. manage to hang on with the blisters and pull till the very end.. haha.. i completed 2000m of rowing!! im satisfied!! haha.. to me la.. its not the winning la.. and paiseh jiu paiseh lo.. i know myself im not fit? unlike other competitors.. yea.. so.. i tried my best :) i feel good le :) haha..

The blisters ar.. just now i go bath.. im like.. omg.. can like dont bath? course its like goign to be.. argh!! pain pain and more pain la!! haha.. when water starts to touch my blisters part.. im like.. omg.. my face like.. ouch~ jump and bath throughout the whole time :) haha.. pain ma.. but.. after awhile jiu ok le.. and ar..

LOW YU HUI!! ITS ALRIGHT LA!! DONT KEEP APOLOGISE FOR WHAT CAUSING ME TO HAVE BLISTERS LA!! AIYO.. THIS ARE NOTHING LA.. BEST IS WE ENJOYED OURSELVES THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE COMPETITION MA!! :) SO.. DONT NEED APOLOGISE LA!! MINOR INJURIES ONLY :) WONT KILL ME DE!! HAHA..

Yea.. today events ar.. hmm...

Me, aeroy, tai yu and kah wai join tertiary men, 2000m.. yu hui and tingting joined tertiary women, 2000m.. and samuel, guan hua, daphne and valerie took part in the mixed relay.. haha.. overall..

WELL DONE PEOPLE!! :)

Hope you guys enjoyed your days, course i have enjoyed mine despite the blisters :) haha.. taken alot of photos by low yu hui, our photographer for the day.. for the day nia ar!! :) haha.. will upload it once they have upload it in tingting's blog..

And..

To all who went just now, thank you!! :)

Just now my relatives came my house to celebrate my ummy's birthday, which is on 15th oct? haha.. push forward celebrate la.. yea.. played dai ti with my aunt and two cousins.. haha.. playing dai ti with them is fun!! especially my aunt.. keep saying dai ti the card number one de!! and keep saying black heart!! lolx!! my cousins and i were like.. laughing sia!! haha..

Hmm... now comes some emo part.. haha..

I realise i understand those not good looking de people de feeling le.. yea.. course im one of the not good looking people? haha.. yea.. i admit im not.. seriously not.. yea.. sometimes nehh.. will envy those better looking guys la.. yea.. jiu like.. when they say shuai ge la.. handsome la.. i will like.. trying to hide myself away? yea.. and im very scare to hang out with some of the people.. course they go for looks de friend? or they only and mostly talk to better looking people? yea.. jiu will kind of discourage ba.. yea.. im not good at anything.. looks la.. study la.. sports la.. everything im so jialat.. hai.. there is once.. one of my friends ask me how many ex i have so far.. i say two? then he like say.. wa.. you this look also have two ar.. im like.. dont know what to say.. and very sad lo.. ya.. ugly ma.. dont have to like that say me ba.. hai.. jiu ugly people also dont want them to look like this ma.. who will chose to be ugly? jiu.. must understand people feeling ma.. one day.. if you turn from handsome to ugly.. you will know le.. and not only through words, actions hurts the most.. yea.. dont be too cocky if you are better looking, use it wisely.. believe in retribution..

Anyway.. yenteng send me a email today.. i find it meaningful :) so.. those people who dont have.. can read it from here.. its very very meaningful..

Here it is.. share this with everyone ba..

Hi Friends，
Pls read….nice words to look at life differently...

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world..

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when

we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting

and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?

真正朋友: 有幾多人有八位真正的朋友?

Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!

我幾乎不認識這些人! 但在我們當中有些人全有對和好的朋友!!!

You have been Tagged by the Green Dog!

你已被綠狗捉住了!!!

,-._,-.

\/)'(\/

(_o_)

ruff!!!!!!

You will Have Good Luck For Two Years if you send this to 8 people or more and if this is sent back to you then you are a true friend.......

如你把這個發給八個人或以上你便會有八年的好運。如這個給發回給你你便是一個真正的朋友... ...

You must send it in 5 minutes or your good luck will run out.

你一定要在五分鐘內發出去如不是你的好運便會流走。

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Being happy is the priority of living,

If u wanna be sad,

Be sad 4 something thats worth it.

珍惜你所擁有的，慶幸所曾發生的。

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Live your life well and worth it... Stay cheerful even when times are bad... jiayous..

what am i good at?
can someone tell me?
i think im good at nothing..

2008-10-10T10:43:00.000-07:00

WENT SWIMMING TODAY!! WOOHOO~

Lolx.. yea.. went swimming today with my guy tai yu!! haha.. i waited for him in the pool lyk an hour plus? lolx.. then he came and we talk in the pool.. had many of our past time.. haha... dont see him play play.. he can be emo de.. lolx.. its true :) haha..

This morning janice message me that she bored? then i message her halfway jiu never reply liao.. course swim ma.. then while i was swimming.. i heard someone call my name.. and i cant see clearly without spectacles ma.. i jiu look out and turn back.. lolx.. when i came out of pool, i saw janice and kah wai outside la!! haha.. they are the ones who called me!! lolx.. im like.. so paiseh.. janice there la.. lolx.. then she say i like angry, course i cant see clearly then turn around.. they thought i dao them.. lolx..

After that went to eat lorx.. then after that go mini toons buy sweets and went around hougang mall.. did some stupid stuffs? haha.. funny funny funny!!! lolx..

Then we thought of walking to compass point from hougang mall.. yea.. heard many stories from janice.. haha.. then reach compass we buy some drinks and sat down at lrt there and talk.. from north to east we talk.. haha.. anything under the sun we talk.. lolx..

Omg.. im burn again.. now im darker.. haha..

Have cup noodles at compass as my dinner? they pei me sit outside the control station there and eat.. haha.. so good of them :) then saw many past north vista people.. we were like.. eh.. north vista people? eh.. another one.. lolx..

After that jiu wait for janice to board bus, then me and kah wai walk home.. and compass toilet stinks to hell!! omg.. go in.. you can smell the bomb!! argh!! haha.. then we walked and talked again.. yea.. today know a big secret :) a shocking one too!! haha..

After that i jiu rush home bath la then go aunt house celebrate her birthday!! haha.. then jiu off back home and blog liao.. haha..

Tomorrow going rowing competition!! omg.. bit afraid sia.. im in the single race.. row 2000m.. alone!! argh!! wish me luck!! lolx.. so.. yea.. going to sleep liao.. need energy for tomorrow!! haha.. update about tomorrow when i come back ba.. :) haha..

GOODNIGHT!! :)

p.s: dont ignore me le hao ma? i never treat you as what got feelings for me when you reply.. i treat you as pure normal friends when you reply.. and im happy when you talk to me.. course i know i never lose a friend.. please.. i dont want lose you, an important friend..

trust me..
i only treat you as friend now..

2008-10-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

SIAN.. SIAN.. PLUS MORE SIAN!!

Today can say is the worse day ever ba..

Initially wanted to go swim today de.. but.. rest lo.. haha..

Yesterday pei yi told me exercise lots suddenly, body will show signal to you asking you to lessen it.. yea.. its true!! if i never tell her about that.. and i wouldnt know the reasons behind it.. i guess i would continue exercising intensively and never stop ba.. this few days i keep having the feeling to faint suddenly.. like on tuesday when i bus home with eileen that time.. when i stand beside her and talk, i suddenly feel like fainting.. omg.. that is scary.. i sit down in front of my laptop, i can also feel the feeling sia.. omg.. am i like dying? haha..

So.. tomorrow then go swim ba.. need more rest :) haha..

Today nehh.. i woke at 3pm!! power right!! haha.. the longest day that i ever wake up in my life sia!! break record today!! haha.. then after that jiu eat, play computer.. then 7pm sleep again =.= then wake up eat dinner.. then blog!!

Haha.. sian hor.. haha.. this saturday going rowing competition? haha.. im in the single match.. and i need to row like 2000m i guess? im like.. 2000m alone.. i will die.. haha.. let's just see how on saturday :)

My friends are going to be piece back to one piece le!! im so glad :) i hope they can be stronger together after this incident.. and learn what friendship truly means.. i have faith in them that they will understand.. course..

THEY ARE MY FRIENDS :)

This song of my blog is from tegomass, its called kiss kaerimichi no love song.. i think? haha.. its a nice song..

enjoy~

my world of music is stopping,
who can continue playing it with me?

2008-10-08T09:02:00.000-07:00

HERE TO BLOG AGAIN!!

Lolx.. Hmm... i think this blog skin got some problem liao.. sian.. looking for another blog skin.. haha.. very hard to find la.. zzz...

Anyway.. today i was waken up by gerard's message.. asking me to go eat lunch.. haha.. i was like half awake? haha.. but.. i agreed.. if not stay home also very sian.. haha.. jiu went bath and went out at 12plus ba..

Met him and winston in hougang mall food court.. ate satay bee hoon today!! haha.. but.. still not full :( haha.. after that winston went to his office and me and gerard intend to go SRJC to look for kah wai.. we reach outside SRJC.. but.. judging from the atmosphere of the school.. like they have no school leii.. haha.. so.. we decided go home lo.. we decided go play basketball at my place there.. zzz... when i reach home, it started to drizzle.. then rain heavily.. then thunderstorm!! lolx.. there was a very loud thunder that shock us!! haha.. while on our way home, kah wai called and he will join us.. but.. rain.. so.. cant play.. end up they at my house play counter strike source.. each one take turn.. lose de change people.. lolx..

Play play play... it reach 6plus.. rain stopped and they went home le.. then i got myself ready to meet eileen they all.. haha.. have subway again just now =.= haha.. yesterday ate, today eat again!! omg.. haha.. together with me is eileen, siang yew, samuel and yun jia.. Hmm... not much happen, just have lots of jokes and laughter.. haha.. siang yew laughter is loud de!! haha.. then there was this couple beside us.. keep looking at us.. especially the guy.. asshole.. never see people laugh meh? wan privancy buay song jiu go somewhere la..

Hmm... after that went home le..

Haha.. nothing much la today.. tomorrow going swimming again.. hope it dont rain leii.. zzz...

P.S : Are you angry with me? We are friends? arent we? i know there is nothing that is going to change.. you once said.. who knows what will happen to us.. maybe ten years down the road we will still be together.. maybe ten years down the road we will hate each other, dont want to see each other.. are you hating me now for what i have done? i dont hate you for what kind of treatment you give me now.. that's for sure.. not now and never will.. but.. are you really going to follow what you said last time that we may hate each other ten years later?

sorry..

2008-10-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

WELCOME TO MY BLOG WITH A BRAND NEW SKIN!! :)

Haha.. yesterday just thought of changing it.. hmm... at 3am like that? haha.. jiu go find new blog skin lo.. hmm... seriously i dont know what kind of blog skin i should go for leii.. think and think.. was thinking of piano de blog skin.. hmm... but.. aiya.. long story why i didnt chose that.. haha.. keep searching la.. aiya.. then finally still settle down on d gray man blog skin lorx.. haha.. manage to find general cross related de blog skin!! general cross, one of my favourite character in d gray man!! woohoo!! :) haha.. hope it would it be nice.. haha.. if people got any comments, feel free to tag in my tagboard to tell me.. thanks!! :) you are most welcome to give comments~ but.. not vulgarities la.. nobody will like people give rude comments right? haha..

Hmm... start my day by waking up in the morning at 11plus.. then see the weather, think and think whether should i go swim ma.. course its like going to rain liao le.. hmm... in the end i still decided to go swim.. initially when i pack my bag and went out that time, it never rain de.. then when i board the bus, it started to drizzle liao =.= i was like =.= and kept praying for it to stop.. haha.. lucky it was just drizzle..

Shortly, reached hougang swimming complex.. went in.. there was this couple, the girl wearing yellow and guy wearing red.. i heard their voice, but.. never turn to look at them.. jiu go change liao.. then when come out of the changing room, i was without spectacles liao.. instead is with goggles on my hand.. then i heard "是leii, 是milfred leii!!" then i heard someone call me.. i was stunned.. who could have called me at that hour in the pool OO?? haha.. and it turn out to be my classmate and lecture mate, jia xin and ricky!! haha.. the love birds in our lecture hall :) they are always that lovely towards each other, and im sure they will stay this lovely for as long as they can de :)

After that went to swim in the drizzle.. didnt care much la.. anyway its in water ma.. will be wet de.. jiu continue swim lorx.. haha.. wa.. today i realise the chlorine smell of the pool is very strong sia!! lolx.. hmm... i swam 20 laps? from swimming with few people in the pool to nobody swimming in the pool la!! haha.. was kind of cold swimming in the rain.. but.. its SHIOK!! haha..

After swimming, i got changed and went to compass to meet pei yi and yun jia for lunch.. before i go swimming jiu ask her..we have subway.. first time i can finish a 6 inch and a regular cup of ice lemon tea and two double chocolate chip cookies!! haha.. probably i swam before that, then can eat that much ba.. haha.. one funny thing.. when yun jia order 6 inch.. she said it as 6 foot!! OO omg.. 6 foot!! imagine you eating 6 foot bread?! haha.. was kind of funny back then.. haha..

After that yun jia and eileen kind of change shift? lolx.. yun jia went home and eileen joined us after her class.. then we sat down at starbucks and chatted.. we chatted about the times we have while we were in secondary 2!! haha.. was very funny!! all the while talking about secondary two times!! lolx.. we have laughter there.. lolx.. and beside us are people studying? and we kind of laugh? lolx.. think they very argh!! haha.. went home at 6plus lorx..

Haha.. today my day was quite interesting.. manage to exercise and recall my memorabletimes in NVSS with my fellow friends!! haha..

Hmm... tomorrow nehh.. other than going for a run.. im not sure what to do liao leii.. haha.. seriously.. when friends are busying with their studies and cca.. and the days without the special one really is boring.. you dont even know how to spent your time.. at least when friends are free, you can go talk la.. when we talk, time really can fly as fast as it can la!! when you have the special someone with you.. the times are even more fast, yet sweet.. haha.. but.. forget about this ba.. all this wouldnt happen in my current life liao.. friends de will la.. special someone nehh.. fat hope lo.. lolx..

Im just that stubborn lorx.. after first time liao still never change.. still bring it up to the second time.. and this time bring it up to a special someone that i have hold on to myself and let go of myself.. stupid and stubborn me.. and this is a special person that have change my life alot.. and due to my stubborness of not changing, she seal off the light shining to my world and leave it for myself to unseal it.. by the time i unseal.. this special person have already gone far far away from my world le..

People ask me.. do have i any regrets in my life?

Of course.. i have.. i have regretted for not treating her well.. that's my regret..

Hai..

Hmm... if i ever to have a third special someone, i have learnt my lesson, and never will bring up to her ever..

I cant be that stubborn anymore!!

Haha.. alright.. yet another day have past.. looking towards more meaningful days ahead.. wonder who will brighten up my days ahead? is it you? you? or her? that's a question that everyone will want to know about in their life, but.. nobody knows..

Only fate knows it..

So.. let's just go sleep..

Who knows tomorrow fate will let you know the person who will be your torch for your road ahead, your forever torch shining your way through together with you..

Ending off..

Goodnight!! :)

will you be my torch?
again..

2008-10-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEEPS!!

Haha.. today nehh.. is a boring start for my last week of my holiday.. zzz... woke up at 1pm? haha.. then eat my breakfast cum lunch lorx.. then jiu online, see here see there.. read blogs la and everything de.. then jiu play some games.. listen to music.. haha.. at 4plus i go back to sleep again =.= pig right..

Hmm.. after that woke up at 6.30pm.. ate some chocolate and went downstairs to jog.. haha.. i think im not getting any improvement in running.. in fact today i think i am worse sia!! normally when i run, i wouldnt feel moodless to run and wouldnt feel so heavy at my legs de.. hmm... today when i start to run, my legs went very heavy, heavier than walking.. and i have no mood to run.. hmm... probably because there is no music with me? or maybe im too tired? or there is nobody i know to pace me? or my standard is dropping? or simply.. i have too many things in life that i cant let go.. which starts to affect me in each and every way of my life.. there is lots and lots of reasons coming to my mind when i run.. how come it turn out this way? why? why? why?

Then after running jiu came back, cool down myself.. online again.. and went to have my dinner.. haha.. watch jurassic park 3 while eating? dont know show how many times on television liao.. haha.. still okay la.. got some entertainment while i eat.. is better than eating silently? lolx..

Then bath la, play games la.. and finally here to blog..

After reading, how was it? boring start of the week ba.. haha..

Tomorrow going swimming again!! haha.. but.. alone swimming =.= my gay tai yu not free.. zzz... nevermind la.. go exercise.. haha.. just now bathing that time, my skin peels off again.. initially got two different colour de skin, now peel down to one single colour.. so.. not that jialat as before.. haha.. hope tomorrow my skin can tan to a single and smooth colour ba.. if not it will be very ugly lorx.. haha.. hope tomorrow i can find someone to pei me lo.. if not i will be alone the whole day liao.. zzz... hope ba..

Hmm... yesterday i written a thank you to her for talking to me in my post.. i dont know if she sees it will she be angry with me? argh!! crap.. if she is angry again.. there it goes again.. think i cant chat with her as friends again le :( dont know leii.. i have this feeling that it will be back to square one, that she wouldnt talk to me again.. praying that it wouldnt ba.. hai.. i was truly super happy when she start to type some words in the chat box and press enter lorx.. maybe its just only misunderstandings then she will talk to me ba.. if that is the case, i hope everyday there will be misunderstandings happening lo.. hai..

Alright.. let's just see how the days ahead goes ba.. hope it will be fine..

That is all..

Sleeping soon..

Have a good rest everybody..

Goodnight!!

each and everyone in my life
makes a difference to me,
there is not a single person that is not important,
all of you are my friends,
you are important,
you keep my life ahead bright,
dont be affected by small cases,
and you dont feel important,
your presence do make a difference to us..

2008-10-05T08:17:00.000-07:00

WA.. TODAY IS SIAN SIAN PLUS MORE SIAN DE LO!!

Haha.. i slept yesterday at around 5am? lolx.. woke up at around 1plus ba.. haha.. pig right.. wake up jiu eat lunch liao.. then not long jiu go buy dinner? lolx.. just now go buy dinner that time, i was furious sia.. i waited like so long.. buying kfc for my whole family ma.. haha.. long sia.. then i order family feast set b!! SET B AR!! he still ask me set a or set b.. i say b.. ok.. he key in liao.. then after that he say popcorn chicken have to wait.. its alright..i stay beside the queue and in front of him and wait.. wait for very long leii.. i see the popcorn chicken so many packets out liao.. he still dont want give me.. like im not there like that.. then i fed up i ask him.. Is the popcorn chicken ready? he say.. wait ar.. then he go ask the people inside if its ready, they say sent out liao.. huh!! im like.. send where? im just in front of him, cant he just take one and pass it to me? send what shit la.. i ask him back.. sent to? he immediately.. turn away.. im like.. wtf you idiot.. talk to you still dare turn away from me.. i was pissed.. Then i got my things ready.. and i went home..

Next.. i thought i can relief my anger with that boy liao.. to my amazed.. i was even angry when i reach home.. my family found out that there is only 8pieces of chicken instead of 10!! and he count me 10pieces de money!! wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf!!! he maths got problem is it? simple taking chicken and count them is it that difficult? pay extra nevermind.. problem is my family have not enough to fill their stomach hao bu hao!! my brother still need return to army de leii.. in the end my parents ate one chicken which i know is not enough de.. zzz... he spoiled my day.. idiot..

Nevermind.. forget about that.. people do make mistakes.. maybe he today bit blur nia.. if got next time.. he shall see!! lolx..

PHEW PHEW PHEW PHEW PHEW PHEW PHEW PHEW~

All i can say is phew~ haha.. was relieved and happy? cause initially i was very disappointed and angry about someone's blog post.. haha.. just now i came to know its just a misunderstanding? haha.. so happy suddenly!! lucky is a misunderstanding.. dont wish it would start any war.. heng ar heng ar!! haha.. and this misunderstanding brought me something that i have being hoping for.. that is she finally talk to me le!! im so so so so happy!! talking to me just to clear this misunderstanding already is enough for me to happy for days le!! :) suddenly feel so good when she replied.. thank you so much for replying!! :)

But.. i think again.. if there is no this misunderstanding, will we talk? hai.. but.. thanks for that misunderstanding!! lolx.. feel weird.. where got people thanks a misunderstanding de? lolx.. but.. just a very big thank you!! for talking to me today..

Alright.. here is some programs i think i will be doing for the whole of next week before my schools starts..

Monday: go running, train up myself..
Tuesday: go hougang swimming complex to swim..
Wednesday: go running and more sports..
Thursday: go swimming again..
Friday: go for exercise first.. then after that maybe go out to shop and crap and eat with the three heavenly people, yu hui, janice and kai wai!!
Saturday: going for a rowing competition and celebrating mummy birthday part one..
Sunday: going for rowing competition second day and celebrating mummy birthday part two..

Haha.. this whole im going to train up myself physically le.. haha.. hope i can do that.. jiayou!!
Once again.. before i go sleep.. i just want say again.. to you..

A VERY BIG THANK YOU FOR TALKING TO ME!! :)

Goodnight people!! :)

im happy when u start to reply..
hope we can continue to chat as friends forever..

2008-10-04T11:11:00.000-07:00

YOS PEOPLE!!

Today i had such a wonderful time with my 4e1 peeps!! haha.. hmm... can say its long time since i see them again lorx.. haha.. still as crazy as ever :)

Oh.. in the morning.. went to punggol plaza to help carry stuffs from market, when i board the bus 3.. tse xin was in the bus la!! and.. she message me.. but.. my inbox full.. so.. no vibration and never notice.. omg.. she still run down her seat and talk to me.. feel so.. paiseh!! haha.. made a promise to her.. next time i see her, must say a big hi to her liao.. hope i will meet her in a not crowded place and hope is not in the bus? haha.. if in the bus, jialat liao.. dont know how to survive through the journey.. haha..

After that jiu get ready to go out liao..

Woa!! before i move on to what happen, just now when i reach home and i read some blogs.. woa.. im amazed lo!! what a joke sia!! such a great entertainment for me and my friends!!

Haha.. i shall keep my comments to myself..

Say all that you all want lo.. continue saying.. can use all sort of whatever colourful words you want use.. can throw all sorts of things you want throw at me.. i cant be bothered.. ya.. i admit im irritating last time.. so?

Aiya..

Let's stop saying about it.. ting le jiu suan le.. let them scold all they want lo.. not like i never being scold or say by people like that.. big deal meh.. just scoldings from people ma.. its their thoughts and feelings ma.. i scold them not like i can change what so ever things like that.. it will still remain as it is ma.. they will continue to scold me? they will say im what la.. what la.. i scold them back so? say them back so? nothing will ever change what.. only create more and more troubles only.. suan le ba..

Anyway.. i had a wonderful time with these people today..

Siang yew, jia qi, eileen, pei yi, cheng shen, kah wai, zu ming, jasmine, su shan, tai yu, sera, ethel, jessica chua, samuel, yun jia and yen teng

Thank you for spending my saturday with me!! hope to go out with you all soon!! haha..

Today bbq short of many materials sia.. first time our bbq short so many things.. haha.. but.. overall is fun!! haha.. me, cheng shen and kah wai reached and we play taiti le.. jiu start fire liao.. wa.. today is the longest and the hardest fire that i ever started sia.. haha.. but.. its fun starting fire with the two guys!! haha.. im like very red? then they say must show a advertisement.. a before and after effect of bbq-ing.. lolx.. after bbq will turn as red as me.. lolx!! the fire that we start keep die off la.. today wind is strong de lo.. haha.. then we keep ba mao of the fire starter.. haha.. each time we needs it.. we say mao mao!! lolx.. cheng shen show me a hokkien video, and is damn funny lo!! haha..

Hmm... after bbq, the security guard came down and close all the water supplies and all.. then we jiu sit near the swimming pool inside sam condo area.. siang yew, eileen, pei yi, yen teng, jia qi and jasmine chatted.. me, cheng shen, zu ming and kah wai chatted and play ass-hole taiti!! haha.. very fun!! in pei yi terms.. its call bastard taiti.. lolx.. its the same la actually..

Then they all went home.. except me, cheng shen, pei yi and kah wai went to hougang mall mac to eat and chat.. then off we went home.. pei yi took her father's car home, cheng shen walk home and me and kah wai walked home.. and here i am blogging le.. haha.. now is like 3plus in the morning and i havent sleep? lolx..

Okay la.. shall go sleep..

Took some pictures today.. shall upload it some other days when i received them!! :) haha..

Nights peeps~

living my own simple life..
living my own way..
without you..
but with my fantastic friends :)
that is all i need to perfect this simple life of mine..

2008-10-03T10:04:00.000-07:00

SAD!! SAD!! SAD!!

D gray man last episode.. zzz... sian.. hmm... its very nice the ending.. haha.. hope there will be season two ba.. zzz...

Hmm... today initially yue hao with tai yu go swimming de.. but.. he message me in the morning that his shoulders pain, cant swim.. nevermind lo.. i go swim alone.. haha.. hmm... can say today is the first time i swam alone ba.. last time is go with father and brother de.. if not jiu go with friends.. this time round is alone.. haha.. okay la.. normal normal lo.. haha.. today swam from 11plus to 2plus.. shiok de lo!! haha.. think i swam about 30 laps? yea.. sense of satisfactory!! :) hmm... my skin got red again.. now im even more red!! haha.. especially my back.. pain also :(

Then after my swim i met tai yu at hougang mall and we went to hougang plaza there de kopitiam eat then go hougang mall de food court eat desert.. i have chicken rice and mango sunrise!! woo!! my favourite!! haha.. while tai yu ate po pian? and bought a cup of avogado milk drink? and it sucks.. sucks sucks sucks!!! lolx.. then after that went to his house to see some games and then jiu head home le..

Wa.. my brother just came back from army today.. cause he is in the armoury.. handle all those equipments de ma.. wa.. his shirt got those oil smell.. omg.. when he took out his shirt, its.. ba-whoo de lo!! haha..

Just came to know my new timetable for next semester is out.. wa.. all end very late la.. sian.. latest is 6pm? hai.. and my second language i will be learning french!! omg.. so cool.. cant wait to learn :) hmm... actually i wanted to learn jap de.. but.. french is quite unique and beatiful language? haha.. give it a try ba..

Tomorrow i meeting my usual 4e1 people again!! woohoo!! tomorrow got bbq!! haha.. looking forward to tomorrow!!

Alright.. will update what will happen tomorrow at the bbq.. that's all friends.. take care!!

Goodnight!! :)

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